A not-small post regarding a small amount of people that I felt it important to make
This is mainly spurred on by a discussion I had with my friend Derrick the other day, regarding how much different your lives can become solely based on the people you meet. Your life can change, you can affect other peoples lives and they can affect yours. This is actually a concept I've found so fascinating that I'd like to do a story on it sometime, though it'd probably work better as a small silent animation, or at least it does in my head.
Maybe I'll somehow end up going into that field and making it, I'd probably be really happy with a life like that. Irregardless, that's of the current topic of this post.
I wish I could phrase myself more eloquently in this passage. I guess I'd like to say that according to quantum theory, there're an infinite amount of universes we none of us had ever met each other and none of us never got to rub our personalities together and I would never be able to make this post. I guess I'd like to say I appreciate you all. I'm glad to have met you guys.
There are four of you in particular I'd like to corner awkwardly. This post is going to be sappy and probably a bit blunt, but whatever.
I feel like there is something I'm forgetting to add here. Probably something about how it makes me sad to think that I could've never met all of you, and that I really do think about how life would be different if it hadn't, and I get extremely sad for a moment. I can honestly say you've all helped me to become better people, and I like to think I helped you all become better people to, though that conclusion is up to you.
It's easy for me to worry about you guys, because I just heart you so desu sugoi kawaii and I want your lives to be as neko doki as possible. n___n
That was me using bad japanese verbosely in an ironic manner to say that I love you guys. Now go and skip down to your respective section, you idiots.
I'm mainly limiting this to people who I consider extremely close friends and who I know consider me extremely close friends in return (or at least, I think so, or this will be pretty awkward). There are several more of you that I could write sappy posts about.
Time to regard you all individually
Trevor - You don't even have a tumblr and will probably never read this, and even if you did, you aren't into sentimental crap so I'll keep it sweet and short.
For a long time you were one of my only reliable friends and I'm glad that we met each other waiting for the bus. You put up with my stupidity and you have such a great mind and I hope you're able to put it to use one day to do something great, even if there're some people out there who think negatively of you. You were my only close friend for a long time, and you have granted me many a smile.
Pom - I almost put your real name here but then I REMEMBERED YOU PREFERED POM SO I CHANGED IT AT THE LAST SECOND!
Anyways, things we already know. You're the first truly close friend I made online, and I'm super glad to have met you. You're intelligent and often calm and creative and you have a SUPER FAB SENSE OF HUMOR. This may sound stupid, but I've always considered us FOILS. Our personalities seem to compliment each other really well, with each of us having qualities that the other doesn't. It's actually something I've always found quite interesting.
And you know, I respect you immensely, even though I know you may not exactly like the idea of people respecting you. You're a respectable person, and also a pretty cool bro. You were the first person I ever told about my depression (even if you didn't always have the best replies. 'Kim are you on your period' JESUS POM PEOPLE DON'T THINK ABOUT KILLING THEMSELVES JUST DUE TO PERIODS!!!). You have been a good source of someone I can talk to when family troubles are amuck, or when I just need to share a lame idea or something.
I also worry about you sometimes. But then, I worry about everyone I care about. Sometimes I'm worried that you're end up carrying yourself someplace where you aren't...satisfied, I guess is the proper word for it.. Just don't be afraid to take risks, I guess. Even small risks can lead to big rewards.
Also I heart you doki doki and sweatervests and curry/kurry team ups and other such things.
You really are a good friend, bro, even if communications have been low lately.
Carolyn - HEY FUN FACT I didn't consider us best friends until you said we were best friends and then I was like 'hey, we are, aren't we' and then I was like 'WOAH I HAVE A BEST FRIEND THIS IS PRETTY COOL BEANS'.
Really, you're one of the people who've known me since I was an antisocial outcast, which is...pretty amazing to think about, since jesus HOW DID YOU STAND BEING FRIENDS WITH ME I WAS SUCH A HUGE LOSER but nonetheless we did befriend each other, and eventually I shaped up and here we are today!
You're a great and intellectual and persistant person, bro, you know that? And you were one of the few people who talked to me consistently when I was mired in depression. It really meant a lot to know that there was someone who genuinely liked me for my personality back then, even if that personality was mainly perverted jokes. n___n You're a good friend, and I really do feel like I could tell you anything without getting judged. When I get into prison for killing someone, I'll use my one call on you.
I look forward to the day you find and marry The One (and by The One I mean David Tennant). I'm looking forward to seeing things turn out happily for you and I'll definitely be the obnoxious person cheering you on from the sidelines in your life. C:
Hero/Derrick/WHATEVER YOU WANT ME TO CALL YOU - YOU'RE ANOTHER PERSON WHO I WAS SHOCKED THAT THEY CONSIDERED ME A CLOSE FRIEND because you're such a fab person with a fab sense of humor and I considered you a close friend too! You have such a wondrous sense of humor and are just a great person in general.
You understand my dumb sense of humor and might possibly be the first online friend I get to meet in real life, and I would've never thought that the person I trolled as Eridan would've ended up becoming a close friend.
I'm sorry that this section is shorter compared to the others but my fingers are tried but yes you are super kawaii and I'm glad I met you. And like I said earlier, I met you right as I was getting over my depression and you and Alex and everyone HELPED ME FEEL A LOT BETTER and aaa I am just so happy I got to meet you!