#nervousnellie

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Yesterday I was the luckiest girl on earth and today my heart is shattered.

and that’s all because of you, babe.

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What happened with S!? 😲

SO!I saw him he’s still as hot as he was before😂When I was entering my school I almost vomited. I was nervous about seeing him, meeting some teachers I didn’t want to see and yeah it was scary as shit.

Me and my friend decided to go to our english teacher first and then go to him. The english teacher told us that she had free period so we came to her office AND HE WAS THERE. HE LITERALLY POPPED OUT OF NOWHERE. (he changed his classroom and now they share this office)

We talked for a little bit but he had to go back to his classroom.

He’s still wearing black which concerns me but in the same time HE LOOKS SO HOT IN BLACK I KNOW IM A SELFISH PIECE OF SHIT

But that was the best thing that could ever happen. I didn’t have time to be stressed about seeing him cause I didn’t expect him there.

I didn’t talk to him about stuff I wanted to talk about (for example the mug I gave him few months ago) but still it was really amazing that I saw him irl. not only on Facebook.

And yes, it all came back to me. All feelings, emotions, memories. But it wasn’t as severe as I thought it would be. The same day I saw him I was triggered but the next day I was quite okay. And I’m still okay ❤️

P.S. HES HOT AS SHIT STILL CANT GET OVER IT + WHEN HE WAS TALKING TO ME ABOUT SOMETHING HE STILL LOOKS SO DEEP IN MY EYES F U C K

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GIRL! WHAT HAPPENED??!! 😮

OKAY I KNOW ITS OFF THE TOPIC BUT I POSTED A PIC ON FB AND HE DIDNT LIKE IT BUT HE LOVED IT! THE HEART EMOJI BITCH IS SHOOOOOOOKETH

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Did you see S when you visited your school?

Girl, today is the day. I’m literally getting ready rn and IM. SHAKING.

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wHAT WAS THE INAPPROPRIATE THING, IM SO CURIOUS 💕

So it happened like 15 minutes before the math final. I went to the classroom with few pens, ruler and the compass (I’m not English, idk if this is how you call it. The needle-pencil thing that makes circles haha 😂)

So we weren’t allowed to have those ones unless the pencil part was replaced with the pen. And I had it with the pencil.

S wasn’t really allowed to be there but he wanted to wish us good luck. I was talking with him and he said that they will take it from me. I was like “Oh come on, it’s just a stupid pencil. ” But he was still like these were the rules and that he would be the one who will take it from me. WHAT AN ASS. 😏

I wanted to ask if I replaced the pencil thing with the pen thing, would I be allowed to have it. And all I could say was “what if I take it and put it inside of…” and I couldn’t finish cause he interrupted me with “no pleasure during exams”

CAN. U. EVEN.

The history teacher that was also there started laughing so hard (you know, S is kinda known for his sarcastic sense of humor) and I was… SHOOK. All I said was “you didn’t say that” and he said “yes I did” AND THE SMILE, GOD.

After that I left him and went to my desk. Believe it or not, but I really couldn’t focus on the final cause few minutes earlier he literally thought about me… putting… okay.

SO THIS IS IT. LOVE IT.

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Oh my fuck so I randomly thought "I'm going to mumble daddy as quietly as I can behind my TC when I walk past him" cause I won't see him again for a while. So I do it, and when I turn around to see him HES FUCKING SMIRKING AT ME OH MY GOSH

ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME?! F U C K I N G. G O A L S.

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I saw you wrote in one of your posts that you would get sick before you would go to your tc class. That's exactly how I would get as well! My hands would shake horribly, it was so obvious I was nervous when I had to talk to him or if he was simply in the same room. Before I would go to his class my stomach would feel nauseous. I would feel like I was going to throw up and it was just horrible how my body would react. I couldn't act normal around him. But, now he left my school and i feel better.

Oh, I hope you feel better now. I graduated from high school and now everything’s okay with my body. No vomiting, no stomach shrinking, no losing appetite. Unfortunately, now I miss him so fucking much. And I don’t know what’s worse.

Also guys, it really freaks me out when I see how many of you have this problem. Please, do something with that. Go to the doctor, maybe psychologist. It won’t happen to me again so I think I’m gonna skip it but you should definitely do it. This is serious.