Today was the worst day in a long time. Just super frustrated with all the things. All these health issues + all these doctors who don't communicate + all these meds and all their side effects + #spoonielife problems = add up to feeling pretty defeated sometimes. So - I bought myself flowers. Because they're pretty. But also because I smelled them, and immediately remembered being a little girl at our house on Dalton Lane, sitting in the front yard by a big, tangly bush of overgrown wild roses. They didn't look like these. But they smelled just exactly like this. It's funny how smelling a flower can instantly bring back a whole place and time, so completely. I remember sitting by that bush, with @heidiquantrell , drinking glasses of Koolaid that we kept putting extra sugar into. Someone made a joking comment that all that sugar would give us diabetes. I had no clue what the diabetes was, but my little girl mind was silently, very overly worried about my sugar intake for years, 💛 💛💛So, the flowers snapped me out of my mood a bit, with the memories. And they're making me smile now, on my dresser. So, anyway, I didn't burn it all to the ground like I was in the mood for earlier. I'm tired. But probably Monday. Monday I'll burn it all down... 😘#roses #rosesforme #boughtmyselfflowers #prettythings #prettyflowers #pinkandpeach #spoonieproblems #chronicillnesses #chronicillness #chronicpain #chronicfatigue #liverdisease #gallbladder #neuropathy #nervepain #hashimotos #otherdumbshittoo :) #stufftosmileabout #fridaymood #burnitdown #sickandtired #medsandbed #netflixandill (at The Paullin Place)
