#never knowing

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Title: Never Knowing | Author: Chevy Stevens | Publisher: St Martins Press (2011)

[corrupt-hemlock]

I’m forever chasing that first female friendship that was definitely way more than friendship and I’ll never catch up to the past

[purpleoceanrock]

Dirt on the Inside of a Bruised Soul

“Sorry I missed our last session, but I saw my mother and I needed some time to pick myself back up off the floor. You know, it's funny, but the night after I saw her I really wanted to sleep in the closet. I stood outside it for the longest time with my pillow in hand, but I knew opening that door would be going backward, so I lay back down on my bed and conjured up your office in my mind. I told myself I was resting on your couch and you were watching over me. That's how I fell asleep. (324)” ― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“I didn't know what to do with this new reality, the horror of my conception. I wanted to bury it in the backyard, far away from anyone's eyes. My skin crawled with knowledge, with the evil that I'd looked into, that had created me. I took long showers. Nothing helped. The dirt was on the inside. (31)”

― Chevy Stevens,

Never Knowing

You always think that, when you get older, it won’t hurt so much. That is a lie. Even the wounds that start to heal are replaced by even deeper agonies that leave permanent scars. I wonder how my soul would appear if I could take a good, long look at it. I’ll bet it would be bruised with dull, painful colors. I’ll bet pieces of it would be pitch black with no sense of ever having been more. 

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Never Knowing by Chevy Stevens: Book Review

Never Knowing by Chevy Stevens: Book Review

I started Never Knowing by Chevy Stevens when I only had a mass-produced paperback copy. It was amazing and I was really into the book and got five chapters in before I could no longer stand handling the difficult format of it. I immediately ordered a hardcover and I finished it just a few days after it arrived. I found this book very different from the others I have read by Chevy Stevens.…

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Hockeysmith launches Cornwall-based record label & shares new single ‘Never Knowing’

Following on from the release of her EP Tears At My Age earlier this year via Ex-Local, Hockeysmith has shared a new track ‘Never Knowing’. The track features on EEL.COMP1, a compilation album from new record label EEL set up by Annie Hockeysmith herself & Lukasz Kucharski (omoo), which celebrates and features artists connected to the new Cornish underground scene and is set for release April 18. With a sound self-described as Kylie on acid, or Cocteau twins at a techno rave punctuated by melodic hooks and lyrics aching with childish naivety, Hockeysmith's new single showcases Annie's eccentric electronic pop wonderfully.

[they-make-me-afraid]

i guess hitting the block button was one way for you to say goodbye