my mental illness, and a piece of shit human being, stole art from me, now my heart beats too fast when other people show me other's artwork because that artist hardworking reality is my unattainable dream
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my mental illness, and a piece of shit human being, stole art from me, now my heart beats too fast when other people show me other's artwork because that artist hardworking reality is my unattainable dream
Things I should be doing:
Cleaning the house
Doing dishes
Start preparing to cook for the invasion of my husbands friends that is about to fall upon my unclean house
What I'm actually doing:
Scrolling through my dash
Watching fanvids on YT
Searching for good Skyeward fanfic
I have so much that I need to do But I feel like doing the opposite...
Sigh
i get home thinking i'm going to do all of my homework and then it comes to reading a chapter for a quiz and i open the book and i really convince myself that i'll read it and it always ends in "fuck it it's just a quiz"
okay guys
what can you say to me to get me motivated to write? because i REALLY need to get further into what i've been working on
help meeee
To Myself:
Thought: You should do something constructive.
Excuse: When I'm done reading/updating/commenting on/watching this.
Argument: If you don't do it now you won't have the motivation later.
Resolution: Let's face it, I never had the motivation in the first place.
I HAVE AN EXAM TOMORROW
And i havnt done much study.
Foolishly, i went to Emmas house for dinner instead (ate some amazing duck) and now i'm home on tumblr.
I have to wake up at 5am... and its now 11pm.
Question is, should i stay up now and make some study notes or go to sleep now and get up extra early tomorrow and study?