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highschool bsf!hee × f!reader
unrequited maybe later requited love, smut | angst | comfort,what not. friends with benefits, happy ending maybe, probs kinda toxic.
synopsis : he only knocks when he’s broken. and every time, you let him in. even when he’s never been yours to begin with. but maybe this time, when he returns, it won’t be to borrow your love. maybe it will be because he finally knows that it's always been you.
teaser
wc: 539
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"heeseung..." your eyes scan him whole. his hair is damp, his wet clothes stick to his body like glue, his eyelashes drip but you can't tell whether it's the rain or something inside him that's fallen apart this time.
"baby..." a whisper, a plead and he's back with that word again. the one he uses when he's broken, when he knows it’ll get him through your door. and that's all you need to let him in again.
you step back, the floor softly creaks on the shift of your feet as he moves forward, arms slipping around your waist as he draws you into a cold embrace. his head buries into the crook of your neck. and just like that, he's back home, wrapping himself in familiarity and comfort. to you, he smells just like petrichor and despair, just his usual cologne combo.
even after all this time that you spent distancing yourself from him, you hate the fact that all it took was one glance at his brimming eyes to pull you right in again.
the rain from his clothes keeps dripping onto your floor as he hugs you tighter, lulling himself into refuge in your arms.
and right when you give up on yourself and wrap your arms around him, he moves back.
"she dumped me, again." his lips quiver and he quickly looks down to hide his face.
of course, that's why he knocked. he only ever knocks when the storm has washed him out.
.
you knew you had gotten yourself into the wrong mess right back in highschool, when you fell in love with your best friend.
you should’ve said no when he asked if he could sleep with you. but you didn’t. not when it seemed like it was the closest you could ever get to being loved by him in the same way that you loved him.
it ended the moment she said yes. you were just a detour on his way to her. a body to learn on, a heart to leave behind.
after that it was nearly as if he had forgotten your whole existence, as if all that had ever mattered was saeyeon.
he never looked back. not at you.
occasionally though, whenever she dumps him, whenever he's not tangled between her sheets, your place is somehow the first he shows up at.
and each time, he's drenched in either tears or rain, sometimes both. each time, he pulls you close as if all that had ever mattered was you.
he holds you close to his heart, but it's not your home. never was, never will be.
it'll remain forever as his and hers.
but you know, every time he's on his knees, every time he pleads, you wouldn't waste a second to open your doors and let him back in.
every single one of those times, he treats you like you reside in his heart, as if it's easy for you to overlook the marks above it, marks left by someone who wasn't you.
as if it's easy to constantly find him searching for someone else in your eyes. like you'd never be enough, no matter what you did.
but it's okay, two can play pretend. he can pretend he loves you and you can pretend you don't.
chap 2 unlocked
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taglist :
@hseungie , @snowprincehoon
reblog for more pls! ty!
i didn't wanna stuff everything into one post so ig this will be around 3-4 parts long excluding the teaser.