#night paranoia

[dont-forget-indigo]

Some things happening in my paranoid ass mind

I am simply a 3-D object moving and floating aimlessly about in a 3-D space where other 3-D objects are going about their business and while there are physical boundaries keeping them from me they can be broken easily and the other boundaries are simply subjective and won't actually stop a thing from hurting me. Therefore I am not safe, never have been safe and never will be safe. And there's nothing I can truly do about it.

That is all

[faebelled]

night paranoia got me like “i’m dead lmao oops”

[pet-symatary]

My night paranoia is getting to the point of where I can't be in a semi-dark house alone and seeing something that scares me This is horrible

[schweigendearmee]

...Last night was pretty damn awful. Night paranoia hit in again but it was nightmarish real this time. Got to bed around 1 am and was feeling pretty ok until I heard some weird noises, then I got that sense somebody is watching me again and usually it doesn't get past this but yesterday? wtf? At several points in the night I could feel someone touching me. I know it was just the paranoia acting up again but I had to sleep with my light on this time. It's the first time since I have this that I have to sleep with lights on. I seriously didn't feel right nor save yesterday. 

Now, because I couldn't sleep well, I'm all emotions and feelings...like seriously, show me a kitten and I'm bawling my eyes out.