#paranoid thinking

[hello-darling-dino]

The paranoia is unbearable tonight.

[offmychest-official]

tw for paranoid thinking

I feel like outliving some people would cure me. if only I could live more than people usually do.I don't wish them death, and that's why I just want to have more time to myself when they're done living their lives. they're not even that bad. but they made me kind of paranoid. I don't trust them. I feel like they're spying on me, and everything they do for me is to secretly improve their spying system. maybe they will stop someday, but they'll still have some information on me, or just remember it forever. but they don't have friends or other family. so when they die, there will be nobody to keep spying on me... I'll feel so calm. I'll be free to download whatever I want, to buy whatever I want, and not just live in my head, where nobody can reach me...

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[dont-forget-indigo]

Don't reblog

Tonight could be the night I die

[dont-forget-indigo]

Some things happening in my paranoid ass mind

I am simply a 3-D object moving and floating aimlessly about in a 3-D space where other 3-D objects are going about their business and while there are physical boundaries keeping them from me they can be broken easily and the other boundaries are simply subjective and won't actually stop a thing from hurting me. Therefore I am not safe, never have been safe and never will be safe. And there's nothing I can truly do about it.

That is all