#night vent

[maplefox-memu09]

I'm basically cosplaying as fucking Yana Toboso rn cuz I have sooooo much things to do- & ngl, I'm slowly getting overwhelmed here lol😂😂😭😭😭

[spunkfunkyzzz]

im so damn tired of this world and tired in general. i have no motivation and all i do is sit in bed or at my computer to rot. its a miracle that i haven’t ended it all. im too much of a coward to talk, feel proud of myself anymore and just anything. i dont want to complain anymore i just want to be happy and i want to be able to comfort my friends better.

im an adult now but i think all the years of loneliness, failure and medical pain are coming back to me. i barely eat and now i cant see very well. i bet when i read this at whatever fucking time. itd take me 10 minutes. i wish we didnt accidentally drift apart..

i hate seeing my friends in pain and because i dont want to say something wrong on accident. but it feels awful when i dont say anything. i just dont know what to do i dont know how to help i want to but im afraid of angering yhem or something worse happening. i feel pointless. im sorry

[sucianena]

I saw one of my ex fwb on a dating app hahahahaha fuck I hope he doesn’t see my shit cus the last time we matched cus I obviously decided to see what he would say and I didn’t want to do a coffee date but also like I’m pretty sure men recognize people they’ve fucked ???? I was being set up or what are your thoughts?

Typing this as I suffer from a stomach ache

[mushroomwaterr]

When you're a people pleaser so you say "I'm willing to do whatever you wanna do" but then they say "why don't you come up with something for a change" but you're so afraid of suggesting something that they don't wanna do so you say "I don't know" and they get mad at you and say "you never know, you never wanna do anything, why's it always up to me, what's wrong with you, why do I have to do all the work" and you're trying your best but it's not good enough and it'll never be good enough, it's not even ok enough

[ascaredcrow]

There's nothing better than when someone trusts you enought to talk to you about their problems and their feelings.NOTHING

[shesthelionheartedgirl]

Somebody save me from my own lonely thoughts. Nobody warned me that finally getting over your ex would make you feel anxious about men again. I feel in square one again. He is a incredibly talented and awesome man. He really is. He never cheated on me or disrespected me. Just distance won over us. So we still talk. Or he still messages me sometimes. Which i kinda hate. Because i cant ever see him as an ex. I just really enjoy talking to him but we're not into each other like before so thats weird for me still. I cant talk normally to him without getting emotional or lonely. Idk if I'm over him yet. I think i am because I've accepted that its over and all. But its making me bitter to talk to him. And to still be lonely. And scared and mad and insecure. Its so complicated. Or i make it complicated. I wanna vent and i feel lonely. I love myself more than ever but i still would like to be loved by a man like i once was. To be protected and cared for. To be treated like a queen and to kiss and to make out. To love and be loved by a man in a friend and life partner way. Not a "bf" way. I don't need it. But i would like it. And most of all i wanna give that kind of love back but.. I cant. My walls went up higher. Somebody save me from my own thought. I dont wanna be alone. Ik i won't But i am in my day to day.

[residenteddy]

That moment when you feel proud of someone for doing something amazing irl, then suddenly get a fierce sting of realization that you may never do the same while others still can. It's my childhood all over again ;___;

[residenteddy]

Sad how I know everybody has had friends visit and I'm just here alone maintaining the house for myself and parents.

… And no1 kurr anyway. Cuz I'm just one guy.