#ninjago cosplayer

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THIS. THIS IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN BREAKING MY HANDS OVER FOR SEVERAL WEEKS. most of this was done in the past 72 hours and OH MY GOD you will not believe how many times i stabbed myself while hand sewing this

if yall have questions about HOW TF i recreated this ask box is open but im gonna be honest my guy i dont remember half of this process

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Simone Borg Number 10, Pixal Lineage Cosplay

I love this girl. She is Pixals older Sibling and one of the P.I.X.A.L Lineage build Number 10, the Blacksheep of the family.

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late halloween post but i cosplayed morro!!

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Hi I am Alanshee Valera

I am a Polyamorous Genderfluid physically but call me what you like,

I am also disabled, I have a Genetic disorder called Elhers Danlos Syndrome that is a root cause of many many other things that's gone wrong. I walk with a cane Forearm Crutches walker, I am an Ambulatory wheelchair user as well and require a KAFOS brace to keep my left knee from randomly buckling. I am also a covid long hauler. Here's me relaxing as my bed is my work station along with a picture of me in my wheelchair.

I have been Cosplaying for 9 years, Writing and Drawing for 10 years.

This page is now Abandoned

I stupidly posted some art and a photo of my side of the story for this Diisdoodles made it there personal mission to Doxx me back without my side or context or even being allowed to defend myself like I have been doing

It was June 2021 that I met Diisdoodles and now in April 2023 because of them I abandon this page because nobody has stopped and thought of the mentality aspect I have accountability for my actions and I have changed but nobody right now wants to acknowledge it I had every right to make those posts it was my way of coping

What is an all right is Diisdoodles suicide baiting constantly or other skeletons in their closet I could drag out just like they've dragged all mine out but you know what I'm not

I will never stoop down to the lowest level that Diisoodles has stepped down to

I write with a similar tone to Stephen King yet they left the contact out that I told them everybody hey I'm really desensitized to certain stuff so please please let me know if I make you uncomfortable because I know certain stuff of mine can be quite dark

I have no excuse for my family but with the white supremacist joke that's because they made me draw like this and then got frustrated and mad similarly to me when I said hey can I draw her with human skin I'm not comfortable with Elora looking like this,

They can't handle sharing their projects with other people and nobody nobody takes into account and is ignorant and blind to the many countless therapists and psychologists who say mental disorders do have problems that affect you day to day you are quite ignorant if you will not listen to the advice of literal doctors,

And so as many of us say oh a friendship is good, hunky dory until you start showing signs of your mental disorder case and point here,

Because I hope you look back in a couple years and realize you were telling a reactive person that they can't react to a situation and that is the worst thing you can do because that turns inward it makes you hate yourself

Like right now I am honest to God somebody strike me down if I'm lying struggling with suicidal ideation over this that everybody is right and I just need to end it all. I'm broken worthless all that bullshit running through my head,

But again you'll laugh at this because everybody laughs and thinks it's a grand ole time until the body ends up in the grave and they realize what damage they've truly done to another human. Especially one with these specific issues,

So take it all I don't care anymore, have a party over it even because if you can go to those lengths I bet you would go to that length,

The volatile nature is due to my reactive disorder I can't do anything but try to continually train myself to not be so reactive I wasn't going to post those messages but honestly I don't care I'm that numb anymore, you going to hurt me even further? Because I already think you've hurt me enough, you're just like your parents.

April 17, 2023

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Snow in the City/Rest

Wow here we are 10 years later....

Snow in the City (Above) and Rest (below) was 2 pieces by me created for the @ninjaneverquit-zine our leader and the one 'dealing' with the absolute madness has been @speedythecat I've been in this fandom for 10 years hard to believe I was 12 and now this year I'm 22, I look forward to whatever more years we are given,

I know myself I would have never imagined 10 years later sitting down cosplaying 2 of the most important characters in my life for a fanzine for the 10th anniversary never in a million years. People have left, people have stayed, new people have joined, I have watched this fandom grow from a Seedling to a Tree and it amazes me you guys amaze me keep being yourself lots of love from Alanshee Valera,

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Someone: So how regal is Ice Empress Pixals Outfit going to be?

Me: Yes

I finally acquired the last few yards for the outer dress sleeves of the Ice Empress Pixal Cosplay. This is to show how the silver lace looks when draped on a form I am standing in the Position of her staring Lloyd down while holding the staff. Also cameo to the left of OG Pixal's wig haha.

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Because its covered first thing she says

*oh god their flirting again*

I post this cosplay joke for the futureshippers especially @fakys who I know would fall over howling at this joke,

The other two cosplayers are chess.boi who's the Cyrus and then p.g.i.e.team as the Acronix (who is their irl partner)

I of course am Pixal

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I like to think I'm funny

(Also this is a Joke we all know Pixal is a badass Queen and Ditching her job was for the Best!)