The guilt and pressure to be physically active kind of sucks. I want exercise to be fun and not soul-crushing but every time I think about doing it, I think about how I've been failing at doing it and then I feel bad and want to avoid the topic.
I need to go hiking. If only the voice of societal judgement in my head would fuck off. I like hiking. I just hate the way I feel when I remember how long it's been since I've done it.
And the whole 'making exercise fun' thing doesn't work very well when there's pressure. It's like... you have to find the fun thing so you can be healthy and everyone will stop shaming you about it! Until you do people will keep saying weird things and every doctor you try to talk to about your chronic pain is going to tell you to do this with zero compassion for the fact that you're tired all the time and exercise has like a fifty-fifty chance of causing you agonizing pain!
It's not about the fun. It's about the shame. And it will never be about the fun or feeling better or any of that bullshit until it stops feeling compulsory. Until not doing it stops being a thing you get punished for.
Shame is a demotivator, you know. It absolutely sucks at getting people to do things.