I thrive on chaos

Call me Hylian (yes that's a legend of zelda reference), any neopronouns/they/she. Aroace (I am loud and opinionated about the aro part in particular), enby, genderqueer. In my 20s. I write fanfiction about found family, friendship, and idealized fictional medicine. You can find me as HylianEngineer on both AO3 and FFN. I'm obsessed with Star Trek and Torchwood in particular but I hop between fandoms frequently and unpredictably. I also ramble about ecology, soil science, anthropology and archaeology, and my job as a lab scientist which I love very much. Please don't expect coherency; my blog is exactly as chaotic as the inside of my head. This is a pretty small blog by tumblr standards, but you might know me from either the aromantic-frog-prince-saved-by-childhood-special-interest post or the "we've averted an entire degree celcius of global warming since 2015" post.

[hylianengineer]

Friendly notification that I am playing around with my pronouns again. In addition to they/them and she/her, you are now invited to call me xe/xir, ze/zir, fae/faer, or any other neopronouns you can think of.

Basically, my pronouns are now anything except he/him. I will probably be updating this based on how this experiment goes.

Thank you for your cooperation.

Update: I have decided I love being called neopronouns now, and I'm adding the addendum that the weirder a pronoun set is, the more fun I'll probably consider it. Also, feel free to mix and match them, that's also fun! Get funky with it!

[hylianengineer]

Me? Posting canon-compliant fic? Apparently I am still capable of it

[hylianengineer]

help from unexpected places (1307 words) by HylianEngineer Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Torchwood Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Owen Harper & Toshiko Sato Characters: Owen Harper, Toshiko Sato Additional Tags: Gen or Pre-Slash, Pre-Canon, Menstruation, Medical Examination, painful periods, Hiding Medical Issues, on accident because you thought it was normal, Hurt/Comfort, Owen's Occassionally Decent Bedside Manner, Owen harper is a good doctor, Developing Friendships, that particular variety of angst that is people being convinced menstrual cycles are meant to be synonymous with debilitating misery, and the catharsis of having someone go 'no what the fuck that's BAD', anemia, no beta we die like torchwood Summary: Tosh has always had horrible cramps during her periods. She’s used to spending a few days a month barely able to function through the pain, and she’s been told over and over again to get over it – everyone has cramps. When Owen finds out, Tosh is shocked that he not only cares, but seems to be convinced this is a solvable problem.

[probuccalfat]

every time a young gay person quits smoking or makes the decision that they want to quit, the sun shines on us all with the promise of happiness and beauty.

[probuccalfat]

i appreciate everybody that’s sharing the sentiment that it’s good for anyone to quit smoking (it is) but i very specifically wanted to highlight and encourage LGBTQ youth because lesbian, gay, and bisexual people are about 1.5 to 2.5 times more likely to smoke cigarettes than heterosexual people, and the statistics for transgender people are even higher than cisgender people. this is due to tobacco companies marketing heavily and aggressively to LGBTQ communities and exploiting the higher rates of mental health struggles prevalent in our communities.

i want and hope to see all my LGTBQ people live long, healthy, fulfilled lives despite how predatory and punishing this world can be. you should stay around as long as you can to make it a little better in your own way.

[this-is-trans-joy]

I wanna specifically shoutout trans men here because back in the day (I don’t know if it’s still prevalent) there was quite a common rumour going around that smoking could make your voice deeper, which meant a huge upstick in young trans men taking up smoking.

So, if any trans men are being told about this, it’s not true!! Smoking will not change your voice, at least not until you’re about forty years down the line and you’ve already irreparably destroyed your lungs and throat and mouth and pretty much every other organ in your body. When you hear heavy smokers with deeper, scratchier voices it is literally because their vocal cords have been ruined. This is not a passive effect of smoking, it is a very very damaging one!

It’s simply not worth it! There will be no meaningful changes except terrible ones. Voice training will do a lot more for you than cigarettes will, I promise that the people urging you to start smoking as a voice training method do not have your best interests at heart!

(And you know what, this also goes for not eating due to the idea that starving yourself will decrease your chest size. Like with smoking, there will be no meaningful changes except terrible ones. Your body is worth so much more than that and there will always be healthier alternatives!)

I wanna see trans people thrive, and one day when things get better and you’re able to start your transition, you’ll want a body that will last as long as possible so you can enjoy every little moment of your life. Please take care of yourself!!

[ob-2-kenobi]

As for trans women and other trans people taking estrogen HRT, smoking has been proven to reduce or even cancel out the effects of estrogen on the body. If you quit smoking, your transition will be faster, fuller, and smoother. I know that it's hard, but your boobs will thank you!

(Btw, afaik smoking only has this effect on estrogen from HRT. Estrogen that AFAB bodies produce naturally is not affected, so smoking is still bad for trans men)

In addition (and this applies to all trans people), smoking increases risks of complications during surgery, so doctors might refuse to let you get whatever surgeries you want if you smoke. They'll at least tell you to quit for a while beforehand, which will be easier to do if you'd already quit to begin with.

[diamondsandphoenixfire]

The not smoking before surgery thing is no joke. I met a guy once who stopped smoking at the time his surgical team recommended and they STILL had to call off the surgery because his oxygen was too low. Can you imagine finally getting your GCS/top surgery/FFS date but then waking up and it’s still there?? (IIRC he’s fully quit now and he got his top surgery with no issues because of it!)

I think also in that conversation, I had a couple people tell me that the book The Easy Way to Quit Smoking is, despite the gimmicky title, genuinely helpful.

If quitting for yourself seems too abstract and it’s hard to care, think about everyone around you. Someone with asthma or migraines will breathe easier if they’re not risking an attack from standing near you.

Lastly, some queer history: a 90’s tobacco marketing campaign that targeted gay men was literally called Project SCUM. That’s what they think of us. Don’t give them your money.

How Big Tobacco Still Targets LGBTQ People

The tobacco industry’s marketing has “systematically targeted” the LGBTQ community for decades…

Tobacco use in LGBT communities

There's a different kind of disparity in the LGBT community that is often overlooked: disproportionately high smoking rates.

[wizardarchetypes]

anyway every time i post about ocd people start tagging the post like "wait this isn't normal?" and i always like to remind people that intrusive thoughts are normal. pretty much everyone experiences them. "what if i jumped off this balcony?" "what if i crashed my car right now for no reason?" "what if i yelled a curse word in the middle of this wedding?" everyone thinks these things from time to time. it's disordered thinking when the distress starts becoming intolerable.

"am i normal" is not as helpful question to ask as "are intrusive thoughts causing me frequent distress?" and "would my life be better if i could find a way to feel less distress/learn to tolerate the distress?"

millions and millions of people have ocd. having ocd is normal. you're normal. but what if you could feel better? what if living everyday in your own mind and body could be tolerable? is that something you want? need? these are questions to ask.

[kobonus]

Pokemon the anime Was just an extended horse movie metaphor

[kobonus]

If you replace pikachu with an unruly yet loving horse nothing changes

[kobonus]

“Well, I do have one left, the most unruly pokemon in my possession. He knows no master and can only kick things.”

And ash is just a horse girl with bad hair so he trains the horse even though it did rupture his spleen multiple times with its beautiful legs

[kobonus]

“Get me that pikachu with the beautiful legs, I need him for the Big Race.”

james voice: Yee  haw pardner

[pokemonheritageposts]

Pokemon Heritage Post

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

[hylianengineer]

Me? Posting canon-compliant fic? Apparently I am still capable of it

[gatesofminrathous]

there will never be anything as funny as the mutual disbelief between long form and short form fic writers about each other's style.

short form writers look at people writing 100k+ fics as though this is some sort of talent given as part of a fae bargain, that the commitment required shows some sort of ungodly mental fortitude.

meanwhile long form writers look at people writing 1000 word one shots like god I would cut off my left nipple to be able to say anything concisely. i would love to play with multiple ideas. free me from the shackles of this child I have birthed. i love them but I now must take them to t-ball and doctor's appointments and they're going to destroy everything I own.

[ao3commentoftheday]

[wizard-council-bureaucrat]

Trying to inflict psychic damage to a tumblr user is like trying to irradiate a cockroach, like it can be done, but the lethal dose is not safe for humans either

[gomezaddamsofficial]

Besides the point, but you could always try physical damage?

[wizard-council-bureaucrat]

You’re right Gomez, bring me the flail

[cherryhatter-deactivated2015072]

KICK THE CAN!

Let’s play the biggest game of kick the can on the internet.

To kick the can, reblog it. I wanna see how long this can go on for.

[visibun]

the oldest reblogs for this post that i can find are from january 2nd of 2013. this can has been getting kicked around tumblr for almost 13½ years now

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

[dark-spirit-tamamoland]

they're still terming random transfems as i type this i see which does make quite a statement doing this today specifically

[puppetstuffing]

watched three girls who reblogged its new blog mutual aidpost (made literally 15 minutes ago) already disappear from its notifs. transfems are not included in their pride :/

[puppetedlove]

:)

[puppetvictim]

:)

[tamamowand]

QUITE the statement to be nuking transfems at the current accelerated pace right at the start of pride month like this, isn't it

[wingkink]

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

[sebsketchs]

sticker design for pride this year! 💞🏳️‍⚧️

[gouged-doll]

vintage nursing photobooks, 1981

[karvina]

youll be typing the url of one of your beloved mutuals into the search bar on this app and itll first recommend you a Tumblr Community with 2 people in it called like Nova Scotia Scrap Metal Enthusiasts

[liquidroots]

happy pride from the trans flag on the floor in deep space nine

[foone]

I always say: Star Trek: Deep Space 9 started in 1993 and ran until 1999, and the trans pride flag was designed (by Monica Helms) in 1999.

The carpets on Deep Space Nine aren't Trans Pride flag colored: the trans pride flag is Deep Space Nine carpet colored.