i’ve started this blog as an outlet for frustrations i face every.single.goddamn.day.
there are times when it all gets a little too overwhelming. sometimes i ask myself, ‘what’s the point?!?’ then i realize, i can’t let them win. i need to keep doing my thing - doing what makes me happy...not succumbing to ancient rules my parents want me to live by, not judging myself for being so far behind in life compared to my friends....’just keep going’ i say. ‘you can do this.’ ‘it will all work out’....but then i question, will it? the things i’ve wanted most in life...i mean REALLY WANTED most in life (parents that didn’t fight every day, a loving home, a happy home, wanting to be in love, wanting someone to love me) i’ve never really had.
too deep, too soon!?! WELCOME to my inner most thoughts! the diary of a single, 30 something brown girl, who would be happy if she didn’t have the pressures of an immigrant family weighing her down. (get married, lose weight, be successful, be independent...but not too independent, don’t wear too much make up, be aggressive, have kids...only after marriage, don’t drink.....the list goes on and on and on)
through this platform i hope to be able to just say what i want and how i feel without caring about what my family thinks or feeling judged by my friends.