dont go to illinoisz

@naviwhiskers vent/side blog

[ultraericthered]

All Giovanni artworks in the Pokemon Trading Card Game

[mantisbuddy]

i think my worst fear is coming off as desperate for attention

[anglaised]

[mantisbuddy]

i always feel like im bothering peple when i talk. maybe its just because i overanalyze peoples emotions like youre not responding to me ok you hate me now

obviously id never say any of this to anyone ebcause i dont wanna be that one person that always needs attention but iuuugghh j hate i hate when i bother people

i promise im not truing to be annoying 🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁

[mantisbuddy]

oh mh god i forogit about this account 🙂

i will try to use this if i just wanna vent without anyone knowing maybe

idk if any of my friends knw abkht this account idrc but like idk .

[mantisbuddy]

woah havent used this account in awhile kinda rusty whhaha ok

im so oversensitive why do i get upset over every little thing ever holy shit

someone raises their voice slightly at me and i cry why do i do this

[oshidorifuufu]

*showing visible symptoms* oh my god i need help desperately

*symptoms go away for one day* what if im just faking it

[menheramellow]

[mantisbuddy]

god choosing to make me a being incapable of feeling empathy towards others with a touch of obsessive jealousy and the inability to understand basic social cues

[c0ffeedaydreams]

imagine your f/o reminding you…

• “I don’t care how messy you think you are. You’re mine. You’re allowed to unravel here.”

• “You never have to earn rest or softness. I want to give it to you just because you exist.”

• “Even on your worst day, I still choose you. Always.”

• “Nothing you say is ‘too much’ for me. I want to hear it all. I want to know you.”

• “You don’t have to be ‘on’ for me. If all you can do is exist, that’s still enough.”

• “Let’s just take the world off your shoulders for a while, yeah? You’ve carried enough.”

• “I’m proud of you. Not for what you did, just for being you. Just for trying.”

• “Every time I look at you I’m like, ‘Yep. That’s mine. That’s my whole world right there.’”

• “You’re not hard to love. You’re easy to love. The world just made you feel otherwise.”

• “I’m not going anywhere. I mean it. You’re stuck with me.”

• “I don’t need you to be ‘better.’ I just want you to be okay. And I’ll help however I can.”

• “Even if the rest of the world doesn’t understand you, I do. I see you.”

[mantisbuddy]

all my dad had to say was "well your done now" and my stepmom straight up ignored me 😂😂😂😂😂 idc if its done now im still overstimulated

istg these mf need to do research on autism or ima tweak 💔

[mantisbuddy]

nobody here gives a shit about me omg bro

[mantisbuddy]

killing myself ok?

[mantisbuddy]

im scared chat

[mantisbuddy]

vent aaahhhh screams loudly

my dads side of the family (the ones im spending vacation with) are super extroverted and just really loud in general. and whenever its dinner we all have to eat TOGETHER. LIKE 20 FUCKING POEPLE IN ONE ROOM and theres a bunch if loud kids i get so overwhelmed :(((((( but ion wanna be rude and say ok your loud and annoying but like bro i cant even sit through one dinner without crying

and i had to sit by my step mom who i dont like :// also this ither person jept asking me questions and i got rlly akward bc i didnt know how to respond but i didnt wanna be rude ooooo and also was rubbing my back. if theres anywhere i hate being touched its my back bro i cant do this

it just feels like nobody else is bothered by the things i worry so much about and i hate masking so much i feel like a burden. when i was done i went back to my camper and fucking cried and NOBODY WENT TO CHECK ON ME. FUCKING. NOBODY. literally nobody would even notice if i didnt come i don't contribute anything why ambi like this

[mantisbuddy]

idek why im crying anymore i literally forgot

[mantisbuddy]

vent i? guess

why do i have to be so damn jealous and clingy all the timeeeee dude why cant i like people normally whyyyyy i wish i could just know how people actually felt about me am i annoying im sorry im sorry im sorry ill try harder

i see ONE thing and i start overthinking like hell do they hate me am i weird are they faking it what the hell get me out get me out i dont wanna be hereeeeeee

[redball-sys]

1. R U GOOD

2. 1S TH1S 4BT M3

[mantisbuddy]

no just in general and i am fineee hahahaa yessssss ok yes