#non-fanfic

[chemicalcindercat]

When your little oneshot idea has turned into 7000+ words with ideas for four sequels-

[spooky-moony]

Why the fuck did I found a Sebastian Stan smut in the #bucky barnes x daughter!reader?!??!?

[destiel-love-forever]

My new m/m book is finally published! Check it out <3

Stay: Book Two of the "Veterans of Callenburg" Series - Kindle edition by McNiff, Taylor. Download it once and read it on your Kindle device

[alollinglaughingcat]

David the Fixie!

A character from my story, Non-Fanfiction, where a teen girl wakes up to the future, where every 2002 OC, neonic or edgy furry, and fanfic trope and cliché exists!

When his wings and halo started forming, his family of demons were disgusted they had birthed an angel, thus disowning him. It didn't help that he was an absolute nerd too! Fixie's are well-known for being All-Mother's warriors, so David felt like scum when he turned to the Grandson of the No-Father, Nein, to make a deal with him, selling away his soul for dark magic. Now he wears Nein as a scarf around his neck. He has given birth to Terry, Ronnie, Bonnie, and Donnie in his seven star cycle life, and is a friend and tour guide to the main character, Emcy.

[chemicalcindercat]

Important Notice for Blue Pills and Scattered Dreams!!

Chapter 3 will be posted soon, but I've got a lot to say about this fic real quick, and I decided to say it here so that the author's note on Ao3 won't be absurdly long.

First, I want to thank you all for your patience. I had a lot of terrible things hit me in my personal life a few months ago, and I didn't have the time or energy to even look at this fic. Then, once things calmed down, I had to wait to get into a better headspace before working on it.

This fic has been heavy from the get-go. Tim's parents are drugging and gaslighting him, and as a result he is not in a good headspace. He thinks that everything is his fault all of the time, and that he doesn't deserve anything good. That is not a good place to be. (I want to take a moment to say that if you recognize yourself in any of Tim's thought patterns, please seek help! You matter, you are important, and you deserve good things and happiness. I've been in that headspace before myself, so take it from someone who understands how hard it is. You don't have to do this alone.)

When I started this fic, I planned for it to have 4-5 chapters. The entire plot was going to be: Tim's terrible childhood, Tim becomes Robin, the Waynes slowly heal and Tim starts connecting with them, Jason comes back, it gets revealed that Tim's parents have been drugging him his whole life, and finally the Waynes start the adoption process and help Tim through his recovery as he stops his medication for good. Then it felt like every time I started actually writing the fic, it would somehow double in size. (As of my last outline, the fic would now have 10 chapters. But that was before I wrote Chapter 3, which ended up having to be cut in half, so at this point who knows.)

Here's the thing: Since my original plans for the fic have been a bit derailed, I want to know what you guys want to see from this fic. Do you want the focus to be on Tim and Jason, like originally planned? Do you want some brotherly bonding with Dick? Do you want to see Bruce and Tim really start to work through things? Do you want to see Steph and Cass introduced?

These are all things I've thought about adding in and have accounted for in my current outline (hence how we got to 10 chapters lol). Though obviously, the more time I devote to each of those, the longer the fic will be. Feel free to be as specific with your ideas for the fic as you'd like to be! I won't be able to account for what every single individual would like to see in this fic, but I'd love to see what the majority of you are interested in!

As much as I love each and every one of my readers, at the end of the day, I write for me. Whatever story this fic becomes, will be the story that I want to write. But I want to take your thoughts into consideration. You all mean so much to me, more than you'll ever know, and I probably would've given up on this fic if it weren't for all of you. I am determined not to give up on this, because I've put Tim through too much pain to not give him the comfort he deserves.

Lastly, I just want to say: Please put your mental health first! You are more important than this fic. Please take care of yourself. This fic (with my current plans) is gonna get real intense. Yes, there will be plenty of comfort and fluff as the endgame, but unfortunately this is a situation where it will get worse before it gets better. If you need to take a break from the fic at any point, or if it goes in a direction you don't like and you need to step away from it entirely, please do so.

With love,

Cinder <3

[chemicalcindercat]

What I should be doing right now is working on one of my already existing WIPs...

But instead I'm debating starting a whole new fic in which Demon!Bruce tries to form a contract with child Human!Dick (for protection and adoption purposes clearly) and poor baby Dick thinks that this demon wants to use him to gain access to the human world and then kill him and eat his soul like what happened to his parents

[chemicalcindercat]

This fic I'm writing was supposed to be a hurt/comfort in which Tim realizes the medication he's been taking his whole life was in fact not needed and was just his parents' way of supressing his genius level brain waves so that he would better fit into high society and not be such an annoying little kid with all of his "pesky" questions.

It was supposed to be a hurt/comfort in which Tim realizes that none of that was normal, and stops the medication immediately, dealing with terrible withdraw symptoms and coming to terms with his parents' gaslighting and abuse.

It was SUPPOSED to be a hurt/COMFORT fic in which Tim has the Batfam by his side through it all, comforting him each in their own unique way, and reminding him that he is loved and supported as he goes through all of this.

Instead, I've written over 3,000 words of just Tim suffering through his terrible childhood with no hugs or comfort in sight, not even realizing how messed up his childhood is because his parents are freaking gaslighting him, WITH NO END IN SIGHT. I have no clue when Tim is even gonna meet the Batfam, let alone get the cuddles he deserves. It HURTS. I don't even know if he's going to be Robin in this fic (could he even be Robin with how messed up these "meds" make him? I don't know! And if I, the writer, don't know, then who does??") or if it'll be more of a "he-gets-adopted-early-on fic. Does Titan's Tower happen? Does Jason even die in this verse? Who freaking knows???

Anyway, it's 3:00am and I should probably pause this existential crisis to go to bed. I guess these are all problems for the me of tomorrow.