I know I came out as Trans not too long ago. A few months
But my head is telling me that isn't quite right for me.
I don't feel like a boy, or a girl. I feel like.... Myself. I look masculine but I enjoy singing, art, makeup and wearing dresses. For the most part I'm comfortable with my body and don't feel a real need to change it.
So, I'm experimenting a little....
I still like the name Michael, I still think it suits me. But, I don't know what label I'd have. Mt brains screaming at me to find one, but I'm scared to choose the wrong one again.
I'm not a boy, but I'm not a girl. I just want to be myself without worrying about fitting gender roles or stereotypes or any of that junk.
I can hear you typing about me being comfortable being trans without having to do any of that and that labels don't need to be chosen or something like that. But my heads just telling me this isn't right. My heads weird, and I feel like I sort of have to fit into those somehow.
Back to my main point.... I think, just maybe, I'm a non binary pansexual.
I'm okay with wearing feminine clothing and I'm okay being in masculine attire. I'm okay with being called he or she if someone can't tell which I am.
I have a girlfriend, but I'm very much attracted to basically anyone with a kind heart. I have a soft spot for bad guys and motherly, loving females who don't take anyone's shit.
So, let's do this one last time, shall we?
My name is Michael Sluis, and I am a pansexual, non binary human(I think?). I enjoy music, sketches, painting, being alone and Disney.
My story and identity aren't quite set in stone. I have a family that's a little dysfunctional, I'll be moving in with my father pretty soon, my grades are shit but I'm working on it. I got a girlfriend and today was our one month anniversary. She's talented, loving, kind, sweet, everything I could ever asked for. But don't let that fool you. She's evil, sassy, and will come after you if you hurt someone she genuinely cares for.
I have a cat, a dog and anxiety. Not diagnosed but I'm pretty sure the paranoia, loathing self hatred and chronic nail biting to the point I bleed aren't normal and I need an excuse for it.
So far, life is anything but easy. But my story is and always will be unordinary, so I'll learn to manage.
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