I’m Valid As Ficto-Aroaceflux & Nonbinary-Woman/Girl Flag (2023)
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I decided to post one more drawing up, but this will be the last one until a few days later or like if I decide to have it be a bit more days, then maybe until next month...?
I had to make the drawing I did that is suppose to be the same flag as this one, much smaller so I could use it as a Avatar on tumblr, plus there was editing I had to do so it would show the full image and not just half of the heart part as well as the spade part.
while the “Heart” can have to do with attraction or very little attraction or no attraction, the diamond is suppose to house one’s gender identity, like it either being Binary, Nonbinary, Transgender and you can add to it probably by splitting the image of the diamond.
like if someone is both Nonbinary & Transgender, they can maybe put one half on the top of the diamond with the Nonbinary Flag & the bottom half for the Transgender Flag, or instead of one being on the top and one being at the bottom, one will be on the left and the other will be on the right side of the diamond.
and even if I am really not sure if I am Intersex or not, and it would be nice if they had a home blood type test tell you if you are or not, and I can’t tell my family of my suspecting I might be because what I remembered from when I was little (and it also has to do with what I had read about the different type of Intersex and it is one that I read that I suspect I might be that type but I’m still not sure.....) , which I’m not gonna say, I mean if they can have a home blood test to show you what blood type you are, which again I am still procrastinating in checking to see if my blood type will come out “O RH D Negative” for a third time...
we will try to get around to it when we can and when we are able to....just wish we didn’t keep putting it off, and I know we will have to use my left hand for it, because it will get more out of it, and I will possibly have to have my eyes closed because half the other tries we had when trying to do that home blood type test, I would end up feeling not so great and would have to go sit down.
I mean I thought it might be because I needed food, plus it might not really be that I’m scared of blood, I mean I might of thought it might be that, but maybe it isn’t that reason I keep feeling not so great when my fingers get pricked.
anyway if someone is Intersex, they can place the Intersex Flag in the Diamond part of the Multi-Flag that is suppose to show the different parts of them that is valid, no matter if it’s gender identity or sexuality or asexuality or aromantic or romantic...
also I can be both Aroflux & Fictoromantic, I just don’t find real humans very attractive in a romantic level anymore, sure there is still a little bit of still being attracted, but with the whole different reasons NOT to be attracted to some humans in this world.....like how disgusting some of them can be with they take their Acephobia too far, and end up trying to “fix” someone who is Ace....
and let’s not forget that even though there are still good people in LGBT that accept people who are Ace, there are some who don’t and their unfair view on Aces and possibly Aceflux is not good....
“so you say, it’s not okay to be Ace.”
“well your point of view is medieval.”
and yeah I know the “Ace” part isn’t in that song, and yeah I’m listening to Lily Allen’s song “F*** You” right now.
but yeah if it’s some people who are Straight who seems to have a problem with Aces, it’s some jerks who are suppose to be supportive and are part of LGBT, but seem to have a problem if someone isn’t s*xually attracted to someone, even if they still might be like either Biromantic,Lesbian, Vincian, Queer or Heteroromantic....at least there is LGBTQIA, and maybe the “A” could be a Multi-A, but making sure no one EVER excludes Aromantic or Ace from the Multi-A part.
I wonder if some Earth Angels would disapprove of me liking that song...?
well I am a Defective Earth Angel who is I guess technically a hybrid soul, and if it is true about my soul-parents who the fragments that came together to make well me is true, that would mean that one was a Angel of Earth and the Other Angel of Heaven, which I guess would explain the whole violet ethereal wings, even though I can’t see them, and I know from asking by using pendulum, and yeah I am making sure not to over do it and use it too much, even though I know half of some of the replies will be half-truths and some pranks, but some percent being fully truthful.
and then there is the whole Soul-Grandparents, that my Earth Angel’s Soul had fragmented from.....
well even though I know not everyone will believe that kind of stuff, and I still think it is possible my pendulum might be giving me a prank answer that has to do with Phenex from the Ars Goetia being my Soul-Dad....
well unlike them, even though there is a possibility I do go to Heaven, I do have thoughts of wanting to find the edge of the clouds and try to jump off of it.....but then there is the possibility I might freeze up like a deer in the headlights, and I have froze up before when I was really high up before, there were these stairs that didn’t have those sides to them, and I got really scared and couldn’t move......
I mean yeah I can still believe in God and even Jesus (but I still don’t want Jesus to cross a line for some form of twisted sense of justice, because it will just prove to me that it isn’t just some humans who can be bad....)
but I also started to believe in the Goddess now too, which like I had pointed out before, some Toxic-Religious jerk didn’t like and they kept throwing that whole “may the lord have mercy on you.” or “may god have mercy on you.” at me, I know it was one of the those two, and I know now that they have been misusing those words, and yeah I got upset and cried and my feelings were perhaps super hurt, and no matter how much I tried to get that insensitive jerk to stop it, and listen that what they were doing was doing more harm than good, they wouldn’t listen and kept throwing those words at me over at the place where it happen, so because they kept doing it, I had to stop them the only way I could, by blocking them....
I can’t remember the name they went by, but one of things I hope is that I don’t run into them again.....that experience would count as Toxic-Religious Trauma, right...?
what they did, wasn’t okay....and it hurt my feelings, they wouldn’t even try to listen or understand that they were doing more harm than good...
anyway I made sure to put [Heart], [Spade] and [Diamond]
under the respective words...
the Heart is for the Fictosexual/romantic Flag that is merged together,
the Spade is for the new Aroaceflux design, which also appears as the full flag that is the colors Violet/Lavender, Light Turquoise, White, Ice Blue and Blue-Gray....
I did do a post before this one, that shows the new Aroaceflux design....
not sure if many will even like the new design that I came up with, and it’s okay if not many end up using it.
plus this Multi-Flag, does show all the parts of me, and a Multi-Flag can be different for anyone, so you can make one that shows your true self.
so the Diamond part can even have the Flags for different gender identities, even genderflux....it might not make sense, but use a diamond just seems right.
there can be different types of Multi-Flag types, and this just shows one that is a Flag that shows Fictosexual/Fictoromantic, Aroaceflux & Nonbinary-Woman/Girl on it...
and yeah it might not make sense to some who might think someone can’t be both Fictoromantic & Aroflux.....well not every Aromantic will be the same ya know.....I still like reading some stories with some romance in it and I still like playing video games with some romance in it, and I don’t mind getting crushes, but I have no interest in trying to pursue someone in a romantic way in real life....and I know I may have not always been Aroaceflux, but I know that I had my heart broken by some guys before (even if it was online boyfriends, and unrequited feelings to some guys I knew in real life, and kind of was in the friend zone in real life.), and I did perhaps try to get romantically involved again, but it didn’t work out because they couldn’t give me my space and not to forget that when I did try to talk to them, it just seem like they would ignore some of my troubles that I tried to talk to them about, so why even bother with that real life romance....?
I can’t really remember much about that time, only very little....but I know that they wouldn’t let me have me time alone when I needed it, and it seems like they wanted to have me around them like 24/7, I mean at least friends and others can respect when I need to have me time to myself, and that can be important for others as well....
I mean I didn’t get much time to myself half the time when we had some rude house guests over a few years ago, which of course that was perhaps one of the reasons I ended up with that first depression in 2015....
and even when I was trying to work on some stuff that was important to me, like a fan fic and possibly some drawings, they would always come into the room and invade my personal space, and I learned that I really don’t like that....
I also don’t like when someone looks over my shoulder or like even next to me on what I’m doing on the computer, I can’t even keep the door locked in the place we live at now, because apparently that is a big fat “No-No” and my family had to break in just to get the door to my room open, just because I didn’t answer them....I mean, hello, personal space.....
I mean I can still love my family, but I wish they didn’t do that....
I can’t even tell them that I’m Aroaceflux, even though I wanted to get their thoughts and feelings about Asexuality first before I came out as Aceflux, and maybe I could later fully come out as Aroaceflux....
but because of my family I asked about their thoughts on Asexuality,
and they end up thinking that only those who are Gay can be Asexual.....which by the way it isn’t just those who are Gay who can be Ace, there can be some who are Straight that can be Ace as well......
but anyway, I had to put on a act in front of them, to act like the talk wasn’t about me, and then once I got to my room I drop the act and the “mask” and let myself cry in heartbreak....
I can’t tell some stuff to my family, some stuff I can tell them and other stuff I can’t.
and excuse me but “being h*rny shouldn’t be mandatory, so stop shaming me for being Ace...” and if that was on a shirt, the word “Ace” would be replace by the “Spade” which is like the Ace of Spades....
I guess every since that pop into my head, that has been my favorite words to say....and it’s true, because of how some humans want to shame people for being Ace....
at least some Aces and others who have different romantic and sexuality,
didn’t find out that half of the time I felt....well “turned on”, half the time it wasn’t really mine....it was energies I was picking up, which is one of the reasons I have to keep wearing my gem bracelets, to stop me from picking up that type of energies....the other reason I use my gem bracelets are to act as sealing charms and limiters, because I don’t want to end up like Carrie White from the Carrie Movie Series or Alessa Gillespie from the Silent Hill Series from both the Games and Movies.
I like both the Carrie Movie and even the two Silent Hill Movies I have seen, and I am going to still keep a eye out for the third movie of Silent Hill’s trailer.
and well yeah I had to pray to both the Heavenly Father & Earthly Mother, to have my gem bracelets to act as to act as sealing charms and limiters, because of the freaky stuff that started to happen after I had started to use a pendulum, like figuring out I can move the pendulum with my mind and even program it on how to do “Yes” Or “No” or “Maybe”......
but when I started to hold something that wasn’t my pendulum, it would start to move like with my thoughts.....and lucky it is just when I touch something, so yeah I got he idea to have my gem bracelets act as sealing charms and limiters, so it doesn’t grow to the point where something moves if I don’t physically touch it like holding my pendulum........I ain’t taking the risk, plus the program for that only broke once, because one of the bracelets became too snug and I had to keep it off, and I had to re-do the prayer and program for the gem bracelets so whenever I do keep them off for a long period of time, they will still work.
that might seem weird to some, but it is working but I would still need to take them off sometimes, but I always keep them on to protect me when I sleep.
and the only reason I had started wearing a gem bracelet, is because being scared awake by what I think was a Incubus...and also had to put some of those Gem Angel Figure under my pillow to protect me, ya know for extra protection....and of course there is the whole needing to protect myself from humans who’s lustful energy might put my dream self in a trance and make me dream-walk....and yeah I did get a dream-catcher because of that, but because of certain reasons, I had to take it down but hopefully I can put it back up another time or maybe get a new one until we check that one...
but for now, I can try to have one of the gems that I keep under my pillow to act as a substitute.
anyway, not sure if many had that same experience, and to find out your dream self was placed into a trance and had dream-walk into someone else dream, can’t be fun.....at least nothing happen and I became self-aware and I was back in both my dream space and my normal weird random dreaming, but it did make me not want to go to sleep while the one who caused my dream-walking was still sleeping, so I had to keep myself awake and I ended up not doing that after getting the dream-catcher to help protect me.
that might seem weird, but I didn’t want to go to sleep while they are sleeping, because they might end up causing my dream self to go into another trance and cause my dream-self to dream-walk again....
I think part of the reason I was able to become self-aware and understand what was going on in the dream, was thanks to me wearing my gem bracelets.
anyway hopefully sometime I can put a dream-catcher up again...
so yeah, some people are lucky not to experience that....
also once again, this will be the last post for sure this time, until like a few days or so....I will post again in a few days or maybe next month.
but until then I can just enjoy checking out art and other stuff on here.
