Kind of tired/sleepy & ramby words on ASCII waking up for the first time / it's first experience with existing :)
You are a parasite 'built' to live inside the code of others. you essential spontaneously spawn into existence. before this you were just a normal computer virus. now you live (kinda of) inside of the 4th wall.
you have no memories of your own. barely any code of your own that isn't keeping / making you alive. all you can scrape together is the fragmented memories of the 'host' you now inhabit.
Eventually (whatever the passage of time means, you're not sure), faces come to surround you. What even is a face? how do you know what that is? What it means to have one? How do you know who these monsters are when you don't even know what you are? What it means to 'be'?
given the experience you later gain, you now know what you did was panic. at the time? you had no clue. what it was you were feeling, what it was you were doing. how could you? you've been nothing, up until now.