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[nonpositiveartist]

So, I suddenly remembered it's like, 1.5 months left till Iceberg's 29th death. Not that I'm planning to do something for the occasion, really, but... good to know.

[nonpositiveartist]

Okay guys I need a lil bit of assistance with some stuff so here's my callout.

Who wants me to use their designs of Dr. Iceberg in my next artwork?

I don't need many, but I need some varied versions of him and, while making up my own variations could be fun, I thought some engagement from the fandom would be more interesting.

Ofc I'll tag you along when the thing is completed. So, yeah, please just type me a comment if you're okay with it and I'll consider it a green light and go from that.

[nonpositiveartist]

Keep thinking about how Aaron's surname — and, by extension, Gears' possible birth surname as well — is Siegel. Siegel, as in a German "stamp" or "seal". Yes sure there is a plain literal meaning to those as to a piece of wax you put on letters or documents to close them, sure.

But still, what I am thinking is was this surname literally, well, a seal on Gears' fate, and could that path he went from being COS (Siegel) to being COG (Gears) be not only some sort of family distancing struggle or that of just "trying to live a life without the Foundation agents behind my back", but also a literal attempt to erase whatever mark was put on him by his ancestors? Was he running off from some sort of a family curse (whether or not Foundation/CotBG related one)? From a certain predicted and overall rehearsed over generations destiny? Or, on the opposite, was the change of name required to obtain said curse (or, say, considering how his current surname sounds, one of Mekhane's blessings)?

whatever went on in this house the leaking roof was not the main problem i swear to you-

[nonpositiveartist]

The World's Gone Normal (and you've stayed the same)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/82021486/chapters/215823806

"What we have we do not keep, and what we have lost we mourn." This banality could be implied to many of the mundane life experiences, of its joys and its grievings as well as to the people around. Or, say, the fundemantal laws of the Universe, the existence of the anomalous, which the Foundation was supposed to isolate the humanity from. Due to all the dangers they propose, as is officially claimed. But would all the anomalous be suddenly gone from this world, in an instant, leaving all those affected directly as well as those who simply witnessed the impact — what great a disaster it could become? How many people would pay their price for the world to become as it should be? And how many would, like Gears, lose their base purpose together with the Foundation's end?

At last, I've done it. The second part probably went hurried as I was running out of surreal imagery and exploration ideas, but yet I'm glad I have even seen this work to its ending. A bit of absurd mental drama covered in an avalanche of random headcanons of Dr. Gears' routine and surroundings. Can't say what's better than that, really.

[nonpositiveartist]

Sometimes I bash my head on the invisible wall of common sense for long enough to break it and end up signing up for something that'll take good week to finish and which, in the end, will leave no impression other than that first bash on the head that I myself received upon contact with the now-demolished structure of logic.

Sure, one shall have no regrets about creating something that has even a slight trace of leannegears mention, let aside actual illustrations to it, but... bloody allied mastercomputer, maybe I really should just stop complicating things for myself.

In a way, the manner in which this whole concept contradicts Gears' personality as a whole makes it somewhat funny that even the process of making this is ironally contradictive and miserable. I can not concetrate properly on the frames because I keep hearing Harlan's darn voice yet I can not stop working because of how ecstatic I am about this overall insane idea. This creation might as well become my epitaph as that of a masochistic misanthrope, if I'd chose to admit myself as one.

But, yes, this one work is not of soon arrivals, for sure, even though I'm not including the whole monologue into this for obvious canon-related reasons. And despite the fact that, as I think of my skills now, this comic might come out somewhat sketchy in its stylistic, know for a fact that I'll be polishing all the frames because I really do want this to give off this exact shockwave of confused awe and the craving for the turn-tables to align in this exact constellation pattern somewhen again whilst you still can witness it. I mean, everyone has the right to be a show off from time to time, right?

[nonpositiveartist]

Hold on. We have the Seal (Siegel), we have the Gears.

WHOM ELSE DO WE NEED FOR THE MACHINE TO WORK?!

[nonpositiveartist]

Ibuprofen? What even was ibuprofen? And why would Gears, who had handled all the physical and mental pains by gritting his teeth and walking straight forward on broken legs, even have it?  © my 5 am brain genuinely trying to finish the fic but delaying the ending by 36573 more paragraphs of this

...I'll genuinely have to split this into halves now. By what force a small idea intended to simply get my writing brain to work had spread out into a 10k+ words unit of absurd descriptions, an enormous off-screen body count, and a "count the amount of scenes the description of which wouldn't flip your mind inside out in the end not even because of the imagery but because of darned punctuation" contest? It was meant to be just a bit of nice ending angst, how widely my anxiety should have spread over these four years to allow this to happen?

Like, I know I genuinely suck at details — even pointless details, really — when drawing. So how in heck am I writing the exact opposite thing? I don't even know anymore what kind of story I am writing, it just goes.

[nonpositiveartist]

Okay so uh, I've randomly became witness to someone's wedding, and the main question now is:

Were there ever attempts to visualize leannegears wedding? Whether a classical European style one or something involving Leanne's family side traditions as well? Like, ever ever?

Gawd give me normal exam grades and some time to sober up after I pass them and darn me if I don't see that happen and I'll have to make it-