#noroitxt

[noroi2k]

i hate dropshippers and shady local online shops like i’m on your site because i need to buy something asap so if you don’t have a physical address you are nothing and i’m closing that shit immediately. and for some reason every store selling printing paper is online and even then they don’t have specific paper weight or type, so of course everyone is overusing temu when you can’t find shit in this craphole of a country

[noroi2k]

i want and need to practice being calmer and more indifferent about things that annoy me, like my coworkers lately, yes they are boring to death and they are grating to listen to, but i really shouldn’t care enough to be complaining about it all the time. i already act half-present because i refuse to participate in bullshit conversations, and if i act even less present i’m def gonna be seen as rude and weird and withdrawn but i’m too old and too busy to be caring about all that on god i have Things To Do and Think About

[noroi2k]

my coworkers are so boring on god but worst of all is that whenever i get quiet and focus on thinking about my own things, i get hit with "you're so quiet today uh oh are you okay" leave me alone PLEASE please pleaseeeee i've had just enough, don't try to bring me into every single conversation because i promise you i literally don't care about anything you could ever think of talking about

[noroi2k]

i'll do everything to indulge my teenage self and transmit to her that it was all worth it

[noroi2k]

i got into an argument on reddit again over semantics and then i realized whatever i say is pointless so i just replied “please don’t ragebait me i’m sick today” and the guy said “ok then get well soon” maybe i’m too quick to hate randoms sometimes

[noroi2k]

not gonna lie i really think that people from my country might be objectively stupid and also have an attitude problem in general. like when people say “oh i like my country i like my people i just hate the government” no i hate it all . i hate being here in every way imaginable

[noroi2k]

this week i read both parts of strange houses by uketsu and i loved them. i really don’t care if it’s far-fetched because i felt genuinely creeped out by the weird house plans and that’s more important for my enjoyment

a side note: i need to learn when to drop books that don’t grasp my attention and not force myself to finish them even if it takes months (read over half of the first kara no kyoukai light novel, half of badly translated heaven’s official blessing, and half of catch-22 until i realized i’m just wasting the time i could spend reading random books that i’m more excited about)

[noroi2k]

today i missed my old job so much that i messaged my old manager to ask what are the chances of being rehired, i cant believe this hello what’s wrong with me? i thought data entry was my ideal job but i’m bored out of my mind and i miss value being put on communication with other people because that’s what i’m good at, and i miss everything apart from the shitty schedule. i don’t know what to fucking DO i wish i never left but you have to see for yourself that the grass is not always greener on the other side