The scale.
I used to weigh myself every day. Sometimes multiple times a day. I let that number creep behind my eyelids and light up my brain every time I blinked. I have not weighed since 1/4. The number is an unknown. This afternoon my nutritionist walked me down the hall to weigh backwards. I feel like it is a victory cause I didn't freak out or force her to tell me the number. I have actually been feeling much calmer since it happened. I just don't want to be ruled by a number any more. I want to be healthy again.












