Random thought..
I still have that conversation running in my head...
You said you were "in love" with me and you want to be with me and what we had. You said you needed to resolve your relationship with her first. Like you said, several factors. But I thought about it. The way you said it, I realized it's because you actually are in love with her and not me. You miss what we had and the attention I possibly gave you, you miss the idea of me nothing more.
I hope she is everything you asked for and more. And maybe the reason you both found each other is because you lacked each other in your previous relationships.
I never want to be a second thought. And it will kill me everyday knowing that if we got together, she will always be on your mind. And the fact that this is a new adventure to you, I need to let you go. Let go of the idea of us every going to be together. I was just kidding myself when I said I saw future with us.
Don't misunderstand me, I do love you. I always will but it is clear that you want/need her. She brings you the joy no one can give you, not even me. I don't want you resenting me for telling you to choose me.
