In a tag you said something about having executive distinction. If it's not rude of me to ask, would you be comfortable with elaborating on it a bit? I have ADHD and therefore terrible executive dysfunction, and nobody, absolutely nobody understands why i can't just focus no matter however hard I try. It's just....i had a tough time feeling compassionate to myself.
Its definitely not rude of you you're going to have to try a lot harder than that to piss me off my dude.
I'm not really sure how to elaborate beyond the Knowing that I have to do a thing, and having exactly 0 physical or social barrier between me and doing the thing, but the thing cannot be done unless under extenuating circumstances (I am forced to bc of an emergency/ I have addysnacks in me). it fucking sucks. It ruins my life. my family at long last is starting to understand that I'm not just being "lazy" or "not trying hard enough" largely thanks to both my official ADHD diagnosis, and also my little brother and his fiance's diagnosis of the same thing. But before then it was always "oh man youv'e got so much potential! D: Why aren't you using ti? D: You are so smart you could do so much! D:"
I don't really give advice because I'm not fucking good at it, but in terms of self compassion- I'm also not good at it and fucking suck. But from a purely mechanical point of view, it might be helpful to think of yourself as a ferarri. or any other reeeally nice sporty ass muscle car no one on this website could ever afford. But without wheels. You're an extremely fast, powerful motherfucker that could smoke every other mf'er on the road and look good doing it-but you don't have wheels. A fast car without wheels isn't fucking going any where. That speed is useless. It's not your fault you don't have wheels, you're a fucking car. You can't go out and get wheels or can you put them on, because, again, you're a fucking car.
I wish I had more resources about where to find a good mechanic or wheels for them to put on once you find them but I don't. I got my diagnosis, got my medication, and it's still so fucking obscenely hard to get that shit refilled I take it as-needed only and as-needed is like once a fucking month so I don't have to dance like a fucking monkey and piss in a cup for 5 different medical professionals to decide I'm not lying about my disability just to sell my meds to college kids.
I've tried some techniques and some supplements that'd made shit marginally more bearable and I'd be more than willing to get into that with you if you'd like, but bottom line-try to cut yourself some slack. Life w/o wheels sucks.