Never learning from your mistakes
Ok so long story short recently I hung out with a friend I have known for years and when we first met I liked him and he liked me but then this whole other thing happened and I ended up dating another guy for 2yrs and the whole my mom going thru the fight of her life. (Those two parts connect but I don't want to connect them right now.) Anyways, even tho I was with someone else and he was too, my crush for him never completely disappeared. Well now we are both single and when we got together with friends everything was going well. The night even ended with the best most awkward hug ever! All was going perfect until we got on Facebook and started talking. I by accident confessed my crush was still there but his wasn't. Basically we ended up talking until almost 5 in the morning and things just were not looking good for me. It's amazing how one sentence can lead into hours of discussion that in the end where Completely pointless. It just goes to show me that as much as I want to be ok emotionally with my mom being gone, I'm not. (Especially when it comes to boys) And I don't know how long it will be until I am. My life and myself r so complicated it annoys me and its not that easy to control. But in the end this guy is still sweet and wants to hang out which is a nice change. I just really hope Soon I stop digging holes for myself(by now u would think I know). Hopefully something nice even just a great friendship can come from this.