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[archive-of-my-mind]

This, I will never forget sitting there, writing that note. When I say I wanna go home, I mean the one place I feel safe. Apparently home doesn't exist, and I make the mistake of trying to make homes out of things and places that really can't be reliable. I can continue to go with comfort, peace and security all from this fulfillment I've endlessly searched for. I don't know how to obtain it, or if its possible. The one thing I can say no matter how bad of a person I feel you are and how deep of a hole you put me into, you were right when you told me I couldn't look to others or things to get what I desire out of life, I thought I got myself out of that but idk, I've realized a lot over the past week or so that I'm very much so stuck in my ways even when I know they are wrong, but give me an answer in how to change it and I WILL TRY EVERY SINGLE THING TO BE BETTER ! Because if I create this problem for myself, and I control all of my actions, just guide me and I will follow through.

[erwinprieses]

WAIT i forgot abou t this image its a literal shitpost but this image of wolfgang view the shitty quality selfies he took of himself flipping the bird literally added 5 years to my lfie but also took 5 years

[archive-of-my-mind]

the state of mind I've been left in after is insane. I can't bear to see others experience. I cant look at, or listen to certain things. I hate so many kinds of people and scenarios that others even if they arent real are in. 3 things in my life have negatively shaped my thoughts and perceptions, you are one of them.

A majority of it I can take personal blame for just for being a fool and it's great I've learned my lesson but nothing is worth being taught the hard way and nothing is worth how I feel and how I think. Maybe someday I'll find that peace.

[archive-of-my-mind]

Lmaooo everything is the same from my past. Why is this still relevant. Why is this the endless struggle. Hey, hey, hey, hey. I had one request, one thing to soothe my mind. To not have this happen. Ofc not. It's funny because lately it's been others for temporary relief from my mind, but it's this one who resets it and all progress. Endless, endless, endless.

I just want to live in a world of comfort, even if built upon the untrue.

[archive-of-my-mind]

You have a lot of nerve to ruin something you claimed meant something to you because you couldnt do it, and then even THINK about another.

It wont end the same tho, because life gives to the bad and the evil all of which they dont deserve. You'll find a way to make it work this time, or they'll be what you want to give it to.

[bisexualjoong]

being bullied in my own server btw

[man-ti-core]

1 9 25 YAY (bothers youback)

HI JULIA thank u for bothering me

1)What are you reading rn?

For a chronic reader of multiple books at once I sure am on only one book right now, BUT I am halfway through The Tiger's Wife by Tea Obrecht which is a difficult book to explain the plot of because it flips back and forth between the current timeline (woman processing her grandfather's recent death) and a flashback sequence (the grandfather's myth-like childhood in a moountain village). My brother is mad at me for reading it because the author is Serbian (Balkan politics are complicated) but I wanted to get the perspective, and honestly, it's refreshing reading a book for a Western audience written by someone from my region of the world? It's so obscure that I always... forget I can write about it

9) What are you craving rn?

COFFEE always coffee, thankfully my brother just made a pot

25) Talk about something else you love

Been thinking about folklore recently (to the surprise of absolutely no one, raise ur hand if you were surprised) and about how the stories being told kind of reveal what is important to the culture the stories originate from. which is true of all stories ig but folklore is more communal so you're gonna get More of it. and in addition to that, many many aspects of folklore are common amongst vastly different cultures.... we are as alike as we are different...