#not tdiary

[auspicixus]

fuck

so i now have to live off £25 a week, and heres a summary of what i have to spend with that when i go back to college:

3x £4.80 for travel, if i ONLY go to college or go out on college days

3x £2.99 - £6.99 for food on college days

as much as £10 for food to have at home & drinks to take to college

on an average week, i'd be spending between £23.37 (if i dont buy drinks or anything for the rest of the week. unrealistic) and £45.37 if i bought everything i need (but noninclusive of other days out).

now, i'm not good at math, but £45.37 is more than £25.

and even going on bare minimum, i still have to pay monthly costs totalling at least £12.02. i have a debit card so i CANNOT be overdrawn.

this means i need at absolute least £105 a month (1 month = 4wks).

i get £100 a month from the £25 a week. sure. you might think "the difference is only £5!" but like... thats the ABSOLUTE minimum, as in based off of the £23.37 a week total. i cannot afford to lose that £5.

other updates and shit are on the gfm: https://www.gofundme.com/5y7nrls

if anyones is able to help me, please consider doing so.

i have things i can sell, i have services i can sell, i have a redbubble account... please just help me. contact me or search my blog for information on how to help.

thank you

[auspicixus]

more updates

so, my etsy listings expired but i never had any sales, and i refuse to relist the items on there.

I have:

- 5 handmade "popsocket" type phone grips

- unfinished chokers/bracelets

- some small charms

- the supplies i used to make the above

and im willing to sell it all just to get some money.

The popsockets have to be sent in a bubblemailer, but the charms & chokers can be sent in an envelope.

Contact me for prices, and we'll work something out (payment over Paypal only)

other reminders

I take commissions for homestuck-style ministrifes and talksprites! Search for commission info on my blog for more details, and message me to discuss specifics. Payments made through PayPal.

I have a RedBubble where I'm uploading pride designs, but I haven't gotten far yet. I'm working on it!

I have a GoFundMe for donations straight to my transition fund.

youll have to look for those links (search gofundme or redbubble on my blog) because im pretty low on spoons currently

reblogs are appreciated, and any ideas on what designs i can do next for redbubble are too!! im struggling to think of new "patterns" and the minute i double up, i have to do each pattern for each flag and i dont have the spoons right now h ):

[auspicixus]

hello everyone

so theres a first aid and basic emergency response course locally on friday (14th) that i rly want to partake in, but im super low in cash rn. its free to attend but its out of town and all day on a non-college day, so i need to pay for travel and food.

i have to pay for bus and train travel, which sucks but otherwise i have to spend over an hour on an old uncomfortable bus that will give me a migrane while having a walker on me. bus = £4.80, train = £7.90. this is £12.70 altogether. food would also be needed because its 10am - 4pm and im a hungry hungry bastard.

I'm gonna say a ballpark figure of £15. i really really would like to take part in this because its both something i want to be up to date on AND it helps with employability (it also includes AED/public Defib training, which i have never had).

my paypal is:

http://paypal.me/TN9Pay/

(has my deadname because Legal)

please please please rb and share if you cant donate! this course means a lot to me and i would appreciate any help!

[auspicixus]

i am now on fiverr!

i only have one gig up, but ill be trying to add more as it comes.

find my first gig here:

https://www.fiverr.com/s2/567cd8e8e7

[auspicixus]

after getting news that my father may lose his job, me and my family are now at risk of losing all of our phones

for some reason our bill wasnt paid last month (which suggests my dads been getting paid less recently, regardless of the news we got recently) and theyve only just told us now, with literally 3 fucking days to find the money

this may not be the only thing we lose in the near future.

i really need help with this one guys, our bill totals £120 plus possible late fees of 10%, and we need it by the 16th at the absolute latest. if anyone can spare the money please please please do

heres a screenshot from my own phone bill, my fathers costs the same price as mine, and my moms is £19.20 plus £11 for the phone itself

this is the total cost:

this is really urgent ANY help is appreciated

if my father loses his phone, he will be unable to get a new job. if my mother loses hers, she will not be able to stay at her current jobs. if i lose mine, i lose my independence.

please help a disabled nonbinary kid and their family have their phones in order to keep their independence and jobs

i would really recommend you put your donations in my gofundme [link: www.gofundme.com/5y7nrls link end] since paypal can be an utter fucking mess when it comes to donations but if youre in the uk i can arrange other ways to get money to me please message me if you would like to try that instead

[auspicixus]

RedBubble items!

an updated list

Currently on my Redbubble:

CLOUDS: Asexual

LINES: Transfeminine

WAVES: Transmasculine

CAVES: Aromantic

HEART: Asexual, Achillean, Diamoric (I thought I uploaded at least Sapphic & Pluralian too but they're not showing?)

They can be found:

www.redbubble.com/people/torappu/collections/729724

[auspicixus]

im not a predator.

i think one of the most important realisations im having is that im not a danger to society at large just for being a ~*~spooky queer~*~.

im not predatory for liking women. im not a creep for it. my attraction to girls isnt just "forced masculinity" either. im not "trying to be straight".

im not predatory for liking people who are gender variant. im not fetishising the nonbinary/abinary/etc community (which i belong to anyway).

im not predatory for being nonbinary either. or trans at all. im not a bad person for being me. im just a person. im just me.

[auspicixus]

my earbuds are also now starting to die and honestly? i have no patience

the problem is i just spent the only spare money i had on cbd oil and a gift for my partner (yes including that £10 i got yesterday the cbd oil was paid for using that and i had already planned to get stuff for my partner using my own money)

im uh. gonna set up a amazon wishlist. i dont rly know how they work so if i fuck up uhhhh whoops!