#note from myself

[0x00fj]

Persona: The Contrarian. Forces re-evaluation of the preceding thought. Prompts defense of self-image, consideration of alternate points of view. Nemesis makes a religion.

[gameofzodiac]

I’m blessed to have recently become friends with a Sag, Scorpio, Libra, Gemini and two Tauruses. They are all different but so supportive of each other. It’s amazing how when you enter the college, the Gemini girl invites you to the table, Sag compliments your look, Libra starts a chat, Taurus guys just sit there and joke about and your Scorpio friend sits there next to you to make sure you are ok. My mental health is getting back on track, thanks to those guys! 🙏🏻 my happiness = more posts haha, ok lads have a blessed day I will be back with a new post tomorrow see ya!

[0x00fj]

Persona: The Contrarian. Forces re-evaluation of the preceding thought, like "And this too shall pass". Prompts defense of self-image, consideration of alternate points of view. Nemesis makes a religion.

[0x00fj]

Draw like you're rich in time and poor in ink

[tentacleduck]

Friend in RL: I don't want to spoil you, so I won't name the show, but *this famous character* is in it this season. I am so happy. Me: Sounds interesting, thanks for not spoiling me. - Couple of days later - Someone on Tumblr Don't want to spoil anyone, so I won't name the character, but someone I love a lot will appear in *this show* this season. I am so happy. Me: Sounds interesting, thanks for... My Brain: *Connects the dots* Me: I hate you, brain.

[tentacleduck]

Family Dinner

Tonight my had the annual family dinner. I spent the evening with them, with people I now for all my life and their loved ones. I felt like an alien. Like their world an my world have only the slightest connection. I do not think any of them noticed. I believe most of them think they know me, they like or love me. I do not believe that anymore. Because they don't care. They joke about gay men and don't care that I might feel unwelcome, I'm not a gay man, I'm a lesbian, so why should I be upset? They talk about mental health and suicide without acknowledging that they are talking about people like me.

It doesn't even hurt that much anymore. It is irritating and sad, but only in a very distant way. For some time now I think of them not as my loved ones but as "those people". But I still go there. I visit them, stay in contact. Not for them or for me. But maybe one of the children will someday realise that they do not fit in with the world they are growing up in. And I want them to know that there are choices. That the world can be different and they can go and live different lifes.

[aurelyah]

I love you Aurelia, never forget that.

Aurelia

[tentacleduck]

Projects

I have some reading and watching projects for this year. Maybe I can use this to document my progress here. The projects I already started are:

1) Before the year ends I want to read at least one novel by every female author featured in the Literary Pin-Up Calendar 2013. I've started this project when I realised that I've read (and in most cases am a fan of) every single male author featured in this calendar and only knew books by one female author (Charlain Harris).

2) I still have a collection of vhs-tapes. I want to watch all the films at least once before my old player passes away.

I will put up short pieces for the books and films I've already read and seen and then I'll (hopefully) write longer pieces on those items that I'll tackle from now on. And on those projects that I haven't started yet. I hope this will be fun.