Dec 9, 2020
yeah my demon brain really going again ‘google search how to find love’
#rant#even though i Know i KNOW what results pop up#ive read hundred of the articles that pop up i KNOW there's nothing new in there#nothing to help#we all just at the mercy of luck#completely at the mercy#;-;#remember being like 12-15 and like#u dont even really know what crushes or love are#and somehow you Still end up falling for ur best friend who's the same gender#and later another friend whos a different gender#and thats how u learn ur orientation since u cant ignore the#overwhelming abundance of love in ur heart#and like it doesnt usually work out (unless ur lucky) but u like Do feel what first love is#like??? somehow as a teen even if u dont even wanna know what u like#u get so many crushes it gets hella apparent if u like girls etc?#sometimes anyway#then suddenly ur an adult and u get 1 crush every year if LUCKY#and mostly they wont like u back just cause those Are very low odds tbf#so ur like damn. how does anyone find love at all? it is truly miraculous#utterly up to luck....
