Just random thoughts
Have you ever thought about how crazy life is? That even if you try a lot to be a good person that is never enough, there will always be someone better than you at everything or that at least people think that they are better, even if they do something wrong they will always be better and superior to you no matter what you will never be enough.
Sometimes I think that my self-esteem is good, you know? but that only last two seconds because when I started to feel good about myself, I immediately realize that I am not and I am not the only one who remembers that all around me makes me realize how horrible I am in all the ways, I am not good looking or at least average, I am shorty and I have a horrible personality. I know that I can't make friends easily well I can't make friends a lot, sometimes I think that the friends that I have only are my friends because they pity me. I think that I am so annoying and clingy that they don’t know how to get rid of me.
I will love to say that my family is my safe place but it isn’t, I don’t know why families have this tradition of comparing you with your relatives and obviously I could never win against them and maybe I could never can because that better at me at everything and they can do all the things that I can’t even if it try to
