💕Spreading Love & Showing Appreciation 💕
I am so ashamed of myself for throwing a pity-party the other day, all because I was stressed out about my upcoming band tour next week but I should’ve been appreciative. It is so unlike me to rant or complain but even that’s not an excuse for my behavior. I know better than to mope about & think negatively. I shouldn’t have whined like I did the other day.
It seems like every time I start to feel sorry for myself & second guess this amazing path for a future that has practically been laid out for little ‘ol me to roll down in my wheelchair, life hands me something magnificent as a wake up call; as if to say “Remember to never be ungrateful. Look at all these wonderful things that you have, which I have provided, for reasons you might not yet know. Take them & roll with it; you don’t know where you’re going yet, but you might like where you end up...So don’t stop here. On you will go; take care & appreciate everything that you find along the way.”
I have been blessed with a wonderful new support companion, Brianna. Who is more than happy bend over backwards in her job to not only help me gain more independence & thrive, but also to be a genuine, kind woman. I have only worked with her for one day & I already view her as a friend instead an employee. I am so happy that she will be caring for me from now on.
My best friend, Ryan is the sweetest person on the planet, an amazing friend, a fantastic boss, & a musician of unrivaled skill. I still can’t wrap my head around all that he has given me; that goes far, far beyond him offering me a contract as his backing vocalist in our current band. He has supported me every step of the way in these show biz endeavors & I am so flattered to be at his side, as part of this upcoming tour.
But my deepest gratitude’s do not stop there; they extend into Gwendolyn’s life too. Each & every one of you listed here has made a lasting impact on my role play experience. I am so, so grateful to you.
@grease-blood-and-cars: Roomie #1...Your character, Nick will always be Gwendolyn’s first love, even if they aren’t together anymore. Jamie, you are my rock. We kept each other afloat through some difficult times over the years. You were there for me when my parents first moved to Africa & I was having a hard time adjusting to being without my dad. You have no idea how much I love you. I miss you everyday & wish you could still be living under my roof with me but I am too proud of everything you accomplished with your passion for special effects & pending film degree. I love you, Jeremy & your mother would be extremely proud of you. On you will go.
@nicotine-stained-guitar: Roomie #2... Your character, Tony is Gwendolyn’s past that sculpted her love for music, no matter what verse Gwendolyn is in. He is the key. Natasha, you are so strong & so beautiful. You & I survived college together. The first years are always the hardest & we pushed through, even if we took some hits along the way, we weren’t deflected. Though I am here attending college without you, I clearly understand your choice to wait until you have a major that you find passion in before you return to living under my roof. My door is always open to you, whenever you’re ready. On you will go.
@quirkymoonmaiden: Marie was the first friend that Gwendolyn made & you were the first friend that I discovered through role play. Marie will always be Gwendolyn’s best friend. Whether they’re making mischief in the Murder Capitol or just trying to survive life at Juilliard, these two have a friendship that even I envy. You & I have also helped each other through difficult times, even though we live miles apart. I will be forever grateful to you.
@wingsxxofxxdespairxx: Where do I even begin? So many characters, so many life changing interactions. Spencer Crest, Ryder Doyle, James March, Ramey, Ramiel, even Ash Williams! They all played key roles in Gwendolyn’s life & development. They were her family, her lovers, her guardian angels. They were each so important, so special, & so real. If there’s one thing I know, each time I write with you it’s a new adventure; always refreshing & beautiful.
@clopinthejester: I first followed your blog because believe that “The Hunchback of Notre Dame” is not just some Disney film, but is a work of art. (And an amazing book.) I just had to get my precious Gwen into a story that I was so passionate about in my childhood. But then along came Chad & he was this sort of smug, yet honest character. Admittedly, I wasn’t so sure how this thread was going to turn out but was so excited when you suggested the idea of Gwendolyn turning Chad. I was not expecting that, nor was I expecting her to become attracted to him, but it happened & I am so glad that it did. Thank you for allowing me to expand on my precious character--to make her a Sire & give her a sense of responsibility; allowing her to grow...in many definitions of the word.
@notscaredofdeath: Words can not describe how happy I was to see you bring Thomas back. He is such an amazing, beautiful character. The love that Gwendolyn has for him ferments in warmth & makes it’s presence known through a loud, uncontrollable heartbeat--One that a vampire should not have. But she does & she has it because a character as unique as yours deserves a very special kind of love.
Thank you all for putting up with this ridiculously long & sappy post. I am supposed to be doing my practicum journal & prepping for my band’s tour next Saturday but instead...I am typing out this message, sobbing all over my tablet because I am just so grateful for everything that I have right now & I want to let each of you know how much I appreciate you. You are all so amazing.
On you will go.
