I am not leaving, please don't leave me
Hello everyone, I seldom you ever see this coming to your homepage or you even bother reading to the end.
As you see, I am away for almost a week, I've logged out of tumblr in my phone. I only check it when I open my laptop but I tried my best not to open the activity and anything. I just check on the chats and messages.
Yes I am busy with this crazy physics summer class, but there's another reason I choose to log out of tumblr in my phone.
I opened it way too much and also I am starting to feel pressured. I started writing as a way to express my emotion, but as I get notes, comments and just all of your love and attention, it made me feel like I have to write something as good or I won't be making you happy. I also find my incorrect superm no longer as entertaining (there's way funnier incorrect quotes blog who's just so good in making them).
The past few weeks posts you are seeing were already scheduled and I am still finishing on my WIP, Collab calls, and requests but as you see I feel like my writing gets less note (and though I know I shouldn't compare my writing to number of notes) it still makes me nervous and I doubt myself even thinking if I can no longer write something fresh and new. Like everything is written and wayy nicer than mine. My collab project is still running, these authors are great. I've heard some of their concepts and I am so excited to compile their works together in the end (please give me some time).
I am tearing up as I write this. Never have I thought I'd reach this point where I feel pressurized by notes, and it's silly super stupid but hey it disturbs me.
So, I am sorry if I will be less active maybe for another week. I need to change my mindset again and maybe after 2 weeks of break,I can go back to being me :)
To my moots who have been keeping my days here bright, thank you and please wait for me to come back :( don't leave me.
To my friends here (all blogs who see this),thank you for helping me and please wait for me as I come back with a more mature mind
That's all. If you read it to this part, thank you and leave a ✨.
I'll be back in a week stay safe, stay hydrated and stay healthy
PLEASE LOOK OUT FOR MY JULY COLLAB PROJECTS. I put them on queue already :)