Hello moots, people I love, and everyone else! especially sweet supporters, yes you!
I am glad to say I am alive, survived my term, and I learn to accept the fact that despite being so jealous of my roomie bringing her boyfie to live here (he slept here all the time so i can say he practically lives here)... i managed to bury my jealousy.. i am still looking for a mental supportive significant others.. and I am still making sure my work, classs, and club are juggled nicely.
tw : self-esteem and eating
I still couldn't bring myself to big parties, coz of my lack of cute clothes (they are on their way with mom!) and .. i mean i could come meet some guy get more fun but i don't wanna show up feeling not cute..
anyways.. my self esteem had been low. i figured out i might be hiding my (i don't wanna say the word) because i feel bad coz i have a great support from family and friends.. i did not stress eat during final, i even lose weight i guess yayy.. but three days after the final i ate like crazy and i regret it now.. I totally appear so normal outside but no inside its unexplainable
other than that. i tried tennis and it was so fun. i felt so lonely like usual.. i haven't listened to any kpop news at all i wish everything is fine.
my writing class got an A 100% and my teacher liked my final draft story. You all will get to read it soon!
I got my first small panic attack on November but its all fine.
I am still smiling, laughing, and being the bright sunshine you all know!
i hope you are all great, but if not. it's okay it's life!
I learn to be happy with what I have, despite it being so bitter inside but at least we can learn to enjoy the bitterness right? chocolate can be bitter and people still love it , so can I be loved too! what is this connection hahaha
i'm still the same old boring girl who can make online people interested in her but irl people never spare a second glance hehehe i got shadowed a lot in real life. :)
Major thanks to @clemthephlegm for completely revamping my blog!! It's definitely my style and definitely so perfect for my brand im so so so happy with it!!! To see the best of the changes check my blog out on desktop! ITS ACTUALLY PERFECT! Thank you my unicorn!!! Love you bunches!
Hello everyone, I seldom you ever see this coming to your homepage or you even bother reading to the end.
As you see, I am away for almost a week, I've logged out of tumblr in my phone. I only check it when I open my laptop but I tried my best not to open the activity and anything. I just check on the chats and messages.
Yes I am busy with this crazy physics summer class, but there's another reason I choose to log out of tumblr in my phone.
I opened it way too much and also I am starting to feel pressured. I started writing as a way to express my emotion, but as I get notes, comments and just all of your love and attention, it made me feel like I have to write something as good or I won't be making you happy. I also find my incorrect superm no longer as entertaining (there's way funnier incorrect quotes blog who's just so good in making them).
The past few weeks posts you are seeing were already scheduled and I am still finishing on my WIP, Collab calls, and requests but as you see I feel like my writing gets less note (and though I know I shouldn't compare my writing to number of notes) it still makes me nervous and I doubt myself even thinking if I can no longer write something fresh and new. Like everything is written and wayy nicer than mine. My collab project is still running, these authors are great. I've heard some of their concepts and I am so excited to compile their works together in the end (please give me some time).
I am tearing up as I write this. Never have I thought I'd reach this point where I feel pressurized by notes, and it's silly super stupid but hey it disturbs me.
So, I am sorry if I will be less active maybe for another week. I need to change my mindset again and maybe after 2 weeks of break,I can go back to being me :)
To my moots who have been keeping my days here bright, thank you and please wait for me to come back :( don't leave me.
To my friends here (all blogs who see this),thank you for helping me and please wait for me as I come back with a more mature mind
That's all. If you read it to this part, thank you and leave a ✨.
I'll be back in a week stay safe, stay hydrated and stay healthy
xoxo, cosmic
PLEASE LOOK OUT FOR MY JULY COLLAB PROJECTS. I put them on queue already :)
This is slowly becoming my diary, but this week does get better 😭😭😭😭
They hand out flowers and one of them complemented my hair 😂😂😂
Whoah what's wrong with my hair... the dye is coming off and my original hair color is growing back lmao... do you guys think it's ombre? No it's me not having the effort and time to paint the roots too hahahaha
But omg i was so shocked. I was just reading my book while listening to a song and they just come and give me flowers telling me to enjoy my sunday and one of them likes my hair
What about my NCT-127 MASK? 🤡🤡🤡
But this week ends nicely! Thank you everyone for making this week so pretty 🥰🥰
Iam so sorry for not posting any stories lately. 😔
I am going to work on the Baekhyun Sehun Forced Marriage (I got the plot after sleeping from my second vaccine shot) because apparently there are readers who want this to be continued. Thank you!
I am so so sorry, but this week has been crazy. I was rushing all my works because I need to take the second dose and yeah i kinda passed out after the second dose. I slept and got slight fever and still feel weak. Anyways, Amnesia will also be continued and My collabs.... are on their way! Please hype the collabs these collab holders are amazing authors and I'm sure all of the participants will appreciate it if you are entertained by our works later on.
So.. i'm telling you please wait for the continuation of
1. Amnesia (Jaehyun x reader)
2. Forced marriage (Baekhyun, Sehun, you)
3. Taeyong prince series!
4. Yuta mermaid series (if anyone likes this)
5. June or July I'll post my first collab project the Hogwarts au! I'm taking role for renjun 🙌
6. In a month or two, the EXO OT12 collab
7. End of 2021 There should be my post on the Butterfly effect collab
8. I have one more surprise but well I lost count of my plan.
But oneshots will probably come up randomly too like usual.. and if you want to request anything or give me a plot idea.. i'll be very thankful and happy
Stay safe, wear mask, practice social and physical distancing and get the vaccine when you can!
Also thank you @yutahoes for taking care of me 🥺💖🥰🥰 pst when will we announce the surprise 🤭
Hey y'all, Cosmic here. Unfortunately, I'm not able to continue this blog at the moment due to life circumstances. For now, this blog is going to be an archive for the packs that I have made on it. Maybe someday I'll come back to it, but I don't know when. Thank you to all who requested any kind of pack from me, I had a lot of fun fulfilling them. I will be making posts for the requests I was not able to fill, so that others may take them up and fulfill them if they would like to. Thank you for your patience and kindness!!
i don’t really post life updates here but i JUST got a promotion at my job and with school starting up soon the stimboarding schedule is gonna be more whack for a bit 😭😭😭 apologies 😔 being a lang major is NOT for the weak smh
