Everyday I observe the humans, learn their patterns and behaviours. My current caretaker always says to me: "you walk into a group of Crows, you have to screech like them". (Though, it seems to portray crows negatively. I like crows.) To make it, I have to fit in. I'm forced to strip myself of the characteristics I was born with, just to make myself seem like a human. Because, apparently in my true form, in my true way, i bring attention to my being. And I hate human attention, and I despise the human eyes being laid on my form. When I pose as one of them, they ignore it. Whenever I blend in, they just scowl and brush me off. Seems like they hate their own kind so much, if even the mere appearance of another human invokes disgust in some of them.
Oh but, it's peaceful to an extent, they don't care because they see a fellow human. However, when I take off the mask of a person, and become the whale, that's when all attention is on me. First it's laughter, then fear and disgust. Their curiosity ends on things that they deem disturbing, or a bother. Then, you become the enemy. They do everything to destroy, because they don't understand, because their brains haven't developed past the point of "Strange = disgusting". Maybe it's just my perspective, yet, I know that no matter how many good encounters I had with humanity, most of them are filled with evil. Or, so to speak, every one of them has evil in their body, somewhere in their soul. It's human, it's interesting, and it's disturbing, yet carries some painful beauty. To both me, and even them.
