#occult student

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01.04.2022

well, hello! i assume not many people will actually see this post. i am mainly creating this blog urged by a deeply personal type of yearning, hence why the posts might not be super comprehensible. i am deeply sorry about your reading experience if you do end up reading this.

The Chariot urges you to pursue an old ambition with new intensity and vigor. Success is imminent, but you must focus on the path that lies ahead, lest you crash.

the above quote is a message i got by googling ‘random tarot card’. randomtarotcard.com did not in fact, disappoint. (i rarely have to take such drastic measures for tarot, but i left my trusty rider-waite-smith over at a friend’s house.)

the urge referenced by the card was my sudden longing for a way to document and express myself going through this little ''spiritual journey''. going for that sweet sweet enlightenment i guess?? it’s such a weird word to use in relation to myself. i am usually not a pompous person by any means. sucks that this spiritual bussiness is such serious bussiness.

but yes, i intend this blog to be a little sanctuary for myself, my thoughts, and my '''''research''''''. perhaps a way to connect with any random people who find that they resonate. i’m doing this mainly for myself, but i know my situation is by no means unique. bah, a lot of thoughts, reflections, and ideas that impact me seem obvious and kind of naive. they might make me seem an uneducated person who shied away from self-reflection!

unfortunately, wisdom or knowledge isn’t logical, knowing something doesn’t equal living it or even completely feeling it. the conviction that ‘‘all of this is obvious, no need to discuss it’ is what led me to live around 22 years of my life in an unconscious and sad way. i was more driven to project myself as a person ‘‘who already knows all this stuff guys come on that’s so stupid’ than to actually internalize any of the that knowledge and start living it.

i plan on posting some astrology material (in relation to my own chart), maybe some book talk, random reflections, perhaps a little bit about what i shyly consider to be a twinflame journey. might even offer divination if i get the extra energy. and post little illustrations like this if i find the time to draw AND read AND write. little bit of everything, basically making this blog into a weird little stinky concoction.

if any of these interests you, feel free to dip in and out, or chat me up. or don’t. i will continue talking to myself either way :^)

~lory