aka the best month of the year - for real this time
1. Keep Me - Acoustic by Imminence
this month I had the best experience ever. I went to a concert & I happened to be able to help out Eddie. I got to talk to the members of the band, I shared DM's with so many people from the team & the other bands (Port Noir and Novelists, gotta give them credit for being the coolest ever!!).
it was the most special birthday I've ever had.🖤
2. MEAN! by Madeline The Person
I love this song from the bottom of my heart. this was the 1st for a while but I needed the more chill tunes to calm myself down the last two weeks of this month, so yeah.
"one thing I like about me is that I’m nothing like you and I never will be"
3. Alleviate by Imminence
here again, this & temptation made me scream and shout like I've lost my mind completely. I bawled my eyes out through this song & the videos of my show, where Eddie was crying as well... words cannot describe how I felt there. it was so moving, I wasn't able to let it go ever since.
4. Me Myself & I by 5 Seconds of Summer
oh how could I forget? I also had my 5sos concert on the last day of april. it was super special, I made some new friends & actually helped pulling out a girl from the crowd. she had a panic attack and fainted right in front of me so I & her gf helped her and I stayed with them on the side where barely anyone were. we had space to dance, we sang the songs together and I sobbed to Jet black heart & many more songs right there. it was the second best experience in my life, I had so so much fun!!
5. Castaway by 5 Seconds of Summer
fell in love with this song just before the show. I knew it before but it never really excited me much. I've been listening to it for these last couple of weeks, it's the best to hype me up.
6. Queerball by McCafferty
actually, I'm more queer than ever this month after watching & reading heartstopper & young royals so yeah. it's alright but I'm getting a bit tired of writing about this song every fucking month, lol.
but what I'm not tired writing of is the mcyt community. I've barely finished my other story (the wilbur soot one) and now I'm writing the most challenging thing: a story about a gay couple from two boys' perspective. it'll be refreshing to get out of the mind of whining girls but I'm a bit terrified as well. wish me luck.
7. Why Am I Like This? by Orla Gartland
this song from heartstopper literally made my heart stop just as that scene was playing. I never had these thoughts before about my sexuality as I am like the teacher from the paris trip, who's figuring shit out at 24, not really knowing what's what yet. I love singing this song, it helped me come to terms with some of the more hidden feelings I have to deal with.
"leave me alone I wanna go home it's just all in my head I won't be upset if..."
this song! this song is the best one ever. I love it when I'm upset/annoyed. it clears my mind instantly and it helps me to stop panicking and focus on important shit.
9. Welcome to the Hell Zone by Bobby Raps, Corbin
this is such a mood! I've listened to this song before and it might have been on my lists before but this month somehow I fell in love with it again. I think this is a special one for me as my life often feels like the hell zone.
"you can help me if your aim is pure - but there's no medicine, you know the cure"
10. Memories by Conan Gray
another one from heartstopper. I've watched the show two times now and read the graphic novel & started the other books as well. it's so good, I love the no-drama aspect of the show even though there are things charlie and nick have to concour. it became my absolute fav tv show with the little animations (as my autistic brain can never seem to understand scenes just the right way and this helps so much!)
