#offloading

[thejawsdevour]

Edison Mugalu (Ugandan) - offloading (acrylics on canvas, 2025)

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lol i used to be a jazz musician:3

[tentative-wanderer]

Every single weekday I work from 9 something a.m. to 8 something p.m. or later, with one lunch hour in between…and work some more on weekends…Some colleagues worked until 11 p.m. recently…Ah…No one except partners has rights in law firms that aren’t small…

Attitude of bosses in Asia towards labour laws and human rights:

Employees suffering but having to “approve” of their suffering:

My pure and supportive bed catching me when I collapse (though one can only dream of falling as beautifully as Xiao Zhan):

God’s smile unwittingly bestowing light on my soulless existence:

GIF of dangerous pretty girl to make my day better:

[kindredbrave]

Last night:

I spent a couple of hours going through her room, moving, discarding, and packing my things. During this time, I was understandably questioned as to what was going on by my (very gracious) hosts. I gave them an overview on my thoughts and continued on to the potential of moving in with my boyfriend. I expected the conversation to be difficult and a little nerve wracking but...it was handled on all their parts with a large grin, well wishes, and assurances that i would always have a place. I'd told story of how I came to be there in their home a number of times in the past; and how much I appreciated how welcomed they tried to have me feel...only now, I have more to add.

[lewdcookies]

It’s starting to feel like I’ve written so much smut about monsters ‘recently’ (if you could call it that) that I feel hesitant about writing anything involving normal humans. Mostly because I always seem to end up writing really aggressive or very filthy sex.

Or I’m simply trying to rationalize my laziness about not getting around writing the WH40k story I’ve got plotted out but can never get around to even start with for some reason.

Perhaps I need to change the setting just so I can let them cut loose a little without it feeling weird. For as much as I’m willing to bend and stretch 40k lore it still feels kind of weird writing about a Sisters of Battle who wants her partner to choke her. I ‘blame’ Green’s recent Sombra pictures for putting that into my head. Even if I’ve had that odd qualm for a while otherwise.

Then there’s also that additional minor worry of that I might end up writing a 40k story that doesn’t feel like a 40k story at all other than at a really superfluous levels. But then again that’s not much different from the rest of the stuff I’ve written in established settings so it really is a minor issue.

[flareblitzedyt]

Some things...

Realise that a lot of the videos that I have been posting up on my channel is not to many peeps taste buds.

Before discovering rpg horror games, I solely did hack and slash style games which showed each preset scenario that the game offers that dived into character dialogue, in turn finding out about the story of the universe that they are in.

Both Berserk and soon Atelier Firis are hitting an ending point to the story in terms of story discovering. On the 24th in Europe, another Koei Tecmo Game is set to release that I’m also performing a let’s play on. While this may seen annoying to some peeps, this is in fact the last game of this category that I will be doing a let’s play on for a huge amount of time (primarily due to that there are no release dates for other titles like Musou Stars or Nights of Azure 2).

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After these are completed, a complete sweep of neglected games I’ve left behind are going to be finished off. RPG horrors with illogical/complex puzzles is without doubt my main source of de-motivation.

Acrylic, Red Haze, Corpse Party (Steam) and Shoujo Kidan being games which I’ve put on hold from the kind of puzzles that are presented in their games. OneShot I’ve also forgotten about, not due to puzzles but just generally down to forgetting.

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Release date being one thing, the biggest factor to play in is the size of the files which Koei Tecmo games and RPG horror/Yume Nikki games compare, with all of my Koei Tecmo game let’s plays I want them to look the best they can, to do that a 1080p 60fps recording and rendering is required. For RPG horror/Yume Nikki games I can record and render at 720p 30fps and not lose any quality to the video. Size differences are massive and with that alongside the fact I only have a few months left before I leave university is why I’m uploading all of my Koei Tecmo videos as quickly as possible (AS HOME INTERNET IN THE COUNTRYSIDE IS PAINFULLY SLOW).

It’s annoying to upload 720p 30fps videos at home, for 1080p 60fps not going to bother.

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Rant moment...

Also having a hard time trying to acquire job experience without job experience in hand in the first place, which mentally has been incredibly frustrating. How does one get experience in the first place, like how I define RPG horror puzzles, things are not bloody easy if you are not in the perspective of someone who lacks knowledge or understanding in that area. I don’t have a fingernails height on the approach behind finding a job properly, or how to write a CV, or fill out a LinkedIn profile, because neither school or university actually teaches you how to do that. Society just telepathically pre-expects you to know these things without being told. All job experiences, regardless of which area it is requires 5 years in this, 2 years in that, this specific qualification, that specific communication skill, alongside this soft skill and that hard skill.

Employment is going to get to the point in the future where no one in the “lower levels of society” will have a job, only directors, only managers, only the absolute self-proclaimed elites will have access to a salary...because the minimal requirements will just be too specific, too high and too elitist.

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Another rant moment...

The fear of disappointing ones parents, throughout the course of me uploading let’s plays, I’ve never told neither my mum or dad that I perform this as a hobby, because I always feel they will feel that it’s a big waste of time and electricity. We barely talk to one another as we have almost nothing in common and opposite views upon how puppies behave in the house. Example, they doesn’t mind them licking plates in the dishwasher when it is still be loaded (even when they’re licking plates that may something poisonous to them like ONIONS)...I on the other hand despise it.

They’ve also told me at one point a few years ago to put my dessert bowl down so our puppies lick the remaining custard off...I didn’t do what they asked me to do for a bloody good reason. I don’t respect society’s self-proclaimed enrollment upon everyone that the natural order and the absolute thing you must always do is respect your elders, your parents, your olders, your family. I as a person believe family is not something that is structured by blood, but by a building of friendships that’s developed overtime, a building that forms of trust, respect and acceptance to decisions that that person has made. This is what I believe, and that the pre-expected expectation of a child always having to do what their parents tell them to do if they themselves cannot make worthwhile decisions are to do it regardless.

I don’t follow a society structure that’s built by each and every generations mistake of the natural order of respecting your parents, if your parents cannot make worthwhile decisions, it is possible to leave them behind as they will only hinder your progression in life, not support you or your career progression. Past mistakes should be left behind for a better tomorrow but no, parents and elders always have to talk about the past, and those pass down through each and every generation, hence why the world will always have war until humanity is no more. 

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Rant over! :D

I understand if this is not the kind of content you’ve followed me for, and I also do not hold it against you at all if you decide to unfollow me, these Koei Tecmo videos will be done and over with by the end of April tops. :)

Occasional RPG horror/Yume Nikki let’s plays will appear, but the majority won’t be otherwise.

Thank you for your patience and have a wonderful day! ^o^

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i love my sk-1 12-13-21