#oh because

[thisdoesntmatter711]

show me how you want it to be

tell me baby, ‘cause I need to know now

[pipcreevey-blog]

Pip should meet Olivia

Bring all the ladies to know me.

[m4kkie]

Tbh I constantly swing between yeah I probably do have depression and nah I'm just lazy and that's an easy crutch to fall on. I genuinely don't know which it is and that's just as annoying as anything else.

The obvious answer then is to actually go talk to a professional about it. I can't count the ways in which that's terrifying, but I'll try to name a few. Talking to a stranger. Talking to a stranger about myself. Talking to a stranger about myself about things that I don't even understand and can never put into words.

And if I do have depression. Then what? Medication? Therapy sessions? For what purpose? I just don't feel like there's any point, there's no real end-game that those will help towards. I'm pretty much already AT my end-game. And  that's part of the problem.

And if I don't? What then..?

[officer-slamsin]