Just gone
I’ve been seeing Graphic Designer for a little over two months now, a month in I agreed to be his girlfriend and now I seriously regret it. About a week ago, I kind of lost interest in the relationship. My internship is ramping up in intensity and I don’t have the emotional energy to invest in the relationship and also take care of myself. I’m snapping a lot, crying a lot, and just feeling very self-conscious.
I’m home visiting for a week and I don’t want to talk to him, I’m annoyed when he texts. I feel bad because he didn’t do anything wrong. I just don’t feel it anymore. Part of it is becoming more aware of certain things that divide us and make us different, some of it is recognizing things I didn’t think were deal breakers and I’m finding they are.
I think that when I first came out of my last relationship I wasn’t ready to be alone and I think, at least for now, I am. I just want to focus on getting through this year, learning as much as i can and getting back home.
I think I’m going to hold off on dating until I move home. I just don’t have the energy to invest in another person and that’s not fair to anyone.