#oldfear

[shehadhopeinhereyes]

[florina-venus]

Old fear cannot see new things. . Wachsen können wir nur wenn wir unsere Ängste überwinden. Das heißt nicht das wir in Zukunft keine Angst mehr haben. Angst ist ein Gefühl das uns am Leben hält das uns wahrnt und uns beschützt. Aber wir müssen lernen zu erkennen welche Angst jetzt nützlich ist und welche entspringt nur alten Mustern und hält uns vom wachsen, vom Leben und vom wirklichen glücklichsein ab. Erkenne die Wiederholungen. Wo drehst du dich im Kreis, welche Runde hast du schon sooft gedreht? Da wo du schon am Anfang einer Sitzung weißt, wie sie aller Wahrscheinlichkeit nach abläuft bzw. Wie du dich verhalten wirst weil du es immer so getan hast und das obwohl du genau weißt, daß es nicht gut für dich laufen wird. An dem Punkt, steig aus mach mal was anderes auch wenn es schwer fällt (am anfang) sieh es als Experiment. Wenn es aller Wahrscheinlichkeit nach sowieso kacke läuft kannst, hast du ja auch nichts zu verlieren 😉 und du gibt's dir damit die großen Chance das es Diesmal besser wird, das es anders wird. Denn du weißt ja schon lange, das es anders werden muss damit es besser werden kann. Und verschiebe es nicht auf morgen, denn vielleicht ist Morgen dein Leben vorbei. ❣️ . #Chance #wachsen #oldFear #Angst #transformation #persönlichkeitsentwicklung #spirituell #ängsteüberwinden #machesbesser #seitMutig #risikofreudig #Mut #ehrgeizig #seiFrei #Freiheit #Neugierde #lebenslust #überwindedeineÄngste https://www.instagram.com/p/Cl_PtRbNDQD/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[finding-my-peace-within]

“A new year, a NEW journey, a new BIRTHDAY…oh, and old FEARS to conquer…”

It’s January 4th…my 33rd birthday and I am finally breaking out of this shell that I’ve created for myself. Did I mention that I am scared shitless? You see, this is new territory for me. I’ve always been a rather secretive person, not because I wanted to be per se, but because I’ve been afraid to show the world who I really am. From the outside, I seem so put together. Truthfully, I’m a strategic and calculated mess with pains that run deep. However, I have a story to tell and maybe, just maybe, my voice can help someone...even if that someone is me.

I’m a true Capricorn…I’m down-to-earth, practical, cautious, predictable, opinionated, reliable and grounded. I’m serious, sensitive, strong, calm, passionate and caring. I have old-fashioned standards and values. I ask fifty MILLION questions. I enjoy the simple things in life. Let’s face it, I’m a piece of work trying to become at PEACE with my work.

You’re probably wondering, “So, what’s the problem again?” Honestly, I struggle with being “me” on a daily basis. Is this who I really am or is it who I’ve become? Am I really cool with being the best friend or is it finally time for me to take my place as a leading lady? Do I really enjoy being invisible and blending in or is it my defense mechanism to keep me from getting hurt? Am I so afraid that I focus less on the journey and more on the outcome? Am I so scared to fail that it’s made it impossible for me to live? How did I get to this point? The biggest and most honest question is…am I finally willing to put all of my burdens down to seek HIS face, feel HIS presence, and trust HIS love?

Every life starts with a blank canvas. We paint our lives with our eyes first, so that our bodies can reproduce it accurately. I’ve been so caught up "thinking" that I haven’t truly opened my eyes to "see" anything. (Can’t blame my astigmatism on this one.) I will never forget one of the last conversations I had with my Aunt Marilyn. She said, “Promise me that you will start living your life…not for anybody else…but for you. It’s not your responsibility to keep everybody together. It’s your responsibility to live this life that God has given you. Bonnie, do you understand me?” That was over two years ago and I finally get it…I finally have the courage to conquer my fears and just live, breathe and move for the very first time in my life.

Happy birthday to me!

[yasnye]