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[smallsinger5901]

why are my lips so fucking DRYY

[sundae-nite]

IDV Writing and Giving Up

More relatable words have never been spoken. Florian once again somehow being one of the ones helping me during a rough patch.

This is such a stupid ramble so hiding all of it under "keep reading" unless you want to read it for some reason. Want to preface though that I'm fine now...okay, not really but I will be!

I feel like I've been slow on writing articles/posts for the past week. Like I was hoping to do a character study on Violetta but once it got closer to Margie's birthday, I decided to write hers up instead (fingers crossed it'll be up later).

I want to continue my IDV VA series as well. I was hoping to write on Hernando's VA but I feel awfully self-conscious now as he ended up following me as saying the nicest words about my post on Cleo's VA.

I also want to continue to write fanfiction with some WIPs still in limbo for the past couple weeks.

And yet, despite all the good that's come my way from all of this, I wanted to call it quits. Like, I'm tired, guys, but I'm still somehow positive?

This weekend was a back and forth of being excited for things coming to the game from lore to cosmetics to events. But the more I thought about it, the more it hit me that I can't enjoy that to the fullest in good conscience. I do want to pick up the game again...to stream...to make content (though I was a poor content creator...I'm a nobody LOL) to just enjoy.

I love Fin's new crossover fit. I really want it and as silly as it is, it's one of the reasons I thought about quitting. Heck, I even really like "Hertztier's" essence. It takes place in London's oldest tower? Tower of London then? Lore of a location I've been too?

Also, I am looking forward to the anniversary event story. More T&I lore to indulge in. It's doubly interesting cause wedding...and D.M. himself is there.

I was excited to see Kamata is back because that means Japanese IPs are back on the table and it was a Japanese IP that got me playing the game in the first place.

Quite right, Florian. Quite right.

I truly am looking forward to all of these things. And unfortunately, the more I suppress my feelings and try to numb them, the worse it gets cause I'm starting to have physical symptoms now. Actually...now that I think about it, it's quite similar to when I had mini anxiety attacks or deep sadness that manifested as tension.

But yeah, I want to remain positive and while I stumble often, there will always light in the deepest darkness. Giving up is something that is easier said than done for me. I feel like a loser. Being this emotional while I watch everyone else do this so easily. But yeah, that's just me.

Even if I don't give up, I want to rest but I can't. The writing bug is still nipping at me. Truly, I'm hopeless.

I'm sorry, real off topic, but why are these Miis seemingly so SENTIENT??? This Florian Mii is scaring me...(ignore the "innit" pls 😭)

[romescovers]

...THE GAY MAN (aka mwah [me]) AINT WRONG THO-

[CHAT WITH : Anonymous on purpose]

[wiltysponderings]

Crushing on your manager is NOT THE VIBE NOT THE MOVE NOT THE MOMENT AHHHHH

[ktmeowoneko12]

yall.... the fanarts of wemmbu welcoming his new mace as his new kid to join the family is growing guys father figure wemmbu is real omg did my fic and some other fics with the same ideas predicted it all minute would be so proud of him omgg gambit and crucible would love his new adoptive child sm that might prob heals wems dissociation a bit wahh😭😭😭

[thefavoritechild]

Day by day I am loading more ammo into the gun that is my drafts that will go off as soon as the new episode airs

[alkhawarizmi]

a bit late but YASUKAZE IN STRANGER THAN HEAVEN???????

[hedgehog-troops]

i think the most heartbreaking fics i have ever read was a series made by an author about suicidal muslim james who also had a crush on regulus. to see the growing resentment towards the religion and the change in how he talked about it was insane (and hit v close to home lol).