This was almost gonna be a hiatus post but I realized I can’t... leave. It would literally break me if I stopped doing this.
I’ve reached a point where I’m crying every 5 minutes because of one little thing gone wrong, I can’t even remember the last time I ever cried this much. I’m not talking myself up (which is very unusual of me I have a..massive ego ngl) I feel incredibly unworthy, and I think I’ve hit the very definition of my rock bottom. I’m not going into further detail because honestly I think I’ve already said too much + I rarely even tell my girlfriend this stuff, she has to rip it out of me and I’ve known her for about seven years now.
Instead, I just wanted to give an intense thank you to anyone who comments, has sent me a message, ask, whatever. I get too easily disheartened when I get none even though I know it’s silly. So, thank you for interacting with me, it’s keeping me fighting. It’s keeping me here. Thank you for looking at my blog and past any sad little text post I’ve done in the last few months, I still regret them all lmfao. Thank you for liking sprees. Thank you for being invested in my stories enough to tell me. Thank you for deciding to follow my little corner of the internet. Thank you for sticking with me even though I’m distant sometimes. Thank you to all of the friends I’ve made here, I’m god awful at talking to you and I’m sorry but just... thank you for dealing with me and my sporadic attempts at communications. Just know if I haven’t said anything in awhile I’m quietly lurking and thinking wow I should send them this really dumb irrelevant meme with no context. Because that seems less stressful than saying hi idk
This got longer than I intended but just. Big ass thank you. I started overthinking like crazy and this seemed better to think about what I have instead of what I’m not doing. I don’t even know if I’m making sense, I haven’t gotten a good rest in a long time. I couldn’t really fall asleep unless I posted this tbh.
I’m not going anywhere I promise. I’m still fighting like crazy. So thank you. I really can’t say it enough. 💖
