Yay...my internet's back! Erm, actually just switched to another provider because the previous one's been refusing to repair for months..
Also, a long message coming ahead. If you're not a fan of lengthy sentiments in the form of a wall of text I'd tell you to skip this.
Well here goes one last rambling...a lot of realizations came to mind during those days of inactivity so...
I realized I've been expecting too much from this community, when in reality I have not much of a place in it. I'll wholeheartedly accept that I'm only up to this point of achievement. Less expectations, less disappointments. No more whining, hopefully.
This is not a farewell post however, but just to let you guys know that I have decided to no longer put too much effort so as not to expect anything in return, and therefore will not be doing as much cc as I have been doing before, just so I would expect less from people and to make sure that the things I'd love to have in my game are the ones being shared publicly. One reason is that I was thinking that I might be doing things in rush that their quality might also have been compromised and that some of you might have been quietly critical of it (though I accept such feedbacks you know). Another reason is that I have to learn to not expect anything after giving something as I've said above, because I admit I had an ambition of becoming a 'household name' in the simblr community and thought one way of achieving such status is that you have to give something to the community so that they recognize you as someone who adds something useful in their games. I apologize for having this way of thinking, I only realized now how greedy (for attention and fame) I became after being able to learn making cc thinking these efforts should become recognized. I know I should rid myself of that mentality and as others have pointed out in some of my 'whiny' posts I must make things I want for my game and share them out of heart not because you're only expecting good feedback from people. And that might be the reason why I suddenly felt 'tired' from creating, because I've been stressing myself out from those said above.
But I will not completely disregard the good things some of you have said to me, reassuring that my efforts don't go wasted by telling me you love what I make and put them to use in your games (though I know I'm asking for too much if I was expecting them to be shown off on your game screenshots). I want to tell you that every like, reblog, and nice remarks that you were giving are very much appreciated. You have done so so much to me, although I admit I took them for granted. Apologies as well if I seemed ungrateful with how you show support on my works.
And also, because I also handle xto3conversionsfinds, I have a looooooot of backlog to catch up on so that will take a hell lot of time queuing conversion cc posts before making time for me to sim.
So see you around folks...even though I'll be just a lurker most of the time. I hope 2024 will be a better year for me, and everyone!
