#only feels

[jiangwanyinscatmom]

Still Jiang Cheng

[okamirayne]

Hi Rayne!

I’m a longtime fan (I read BtB when you were releasing OtC).

I just wanted to pop by as I’m doing my regular reread of the series, which is a habit I reserve for my most favourite books, and say hi and check in on you.

How are you? And (no pressure at all) how are you getting on with your original works? I look forward to the day I can read more of your wonderful writing. I’ve seen your updates on burnout and I don’t think this will help much but I want you to know you have a loyal fan in me who would enjoy and applaud anything that you write. I hope you have a wonderful rest of the year and festive season if you celebrate!

Hello, my dear Anon!💜

I’m a longtime fan (I read BtB when you were releasing OtC).

Oh wow! That's just so awesome. Thank you so much for the love you've shown the series. I'm so ridiculously touched that you return to enjoy the BtB madness and that it ranks among the stories you revisit. So, so happy and insanely chuffed to hear this. 💜💜💜

[..] say hi and check in on you.

How are you? And (no pressure at all) how are you getting on with your original works?

...there is a picture somewhere (a meme) of what looks like a hedgehog losing it's shit...*searches for it*

This, presently, is me. I am this spiky little ball of hot ballistic head injury waiting to happen.

Slightly more realistic representation:

Not sure whether that answers your question, my luv. 😅

My idiocy aside, it's so very sweet of you to check in. Thank you 🙏🏼 💗💜 I'm sadly still muscling my way through the shitshow that is creative burnout and trying to put out a few personal dumpster fires. My recent return to the BtB series has been an attempt to reconnect myself to my creativity...

I've been eyeing HHU for a few weeks now...

I’m considering flexing the atrophied muscle of my writer's brain by working a little on this BtB instalment, just to see if it gets the vital life-giving creative blood flowing again...

My original works remain preserved in a freeze-frame -- not abandoned, just locked behind a bloody glass wall (hence 'holding the wall and screaming'). My poor OCs are a collective entity, sitting with their chins in hand, eyeing me from beneath heavy lids, eyebrows cocked, waiting for me to come alive again.

And messages like yours?

They're a life-giving shot. Hugely nourishing to that deeply sad and starved part of me.

Thank you. 💕💜💕

Seriously. My earlier humour aside, your message has found me grasping another life-line of hope, and another reminder why I will not give this up - Screaming Hedgehog will prevail.

I’ve seen your updates on burnout and I don’t think this will help much [...]

Oh my dear, sweet, humble, beautifully kind, Anon -- how profoundly wrong you are about that, my friend. 🥹 You could not be further from the truth.

[...] but I want you to know you have a loyal fan in me who would enjoy and applaud anything that you write.

*hears her own heart break -- in the best way* 💔💔❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

Anon...This message from you impacts me in ways that, as usual, I fail to be able to communicate in words. I might be able to choreograph it in some dynamic form of hug/glomp/undying-embrace, from which you might not be able to extricate yourself without a tasergun (or tea, I'll take the carrot over the stick). But please, PLEASE, know that by reaching out to leave me this message, what you've done does WAY more than help. It heals. It hits. Hard. Right in the heart. And I clearly need that.

🤔 I recognise that doesn't make much sense, but it helps to remember why it hurts so damned badly not to be writing, otherwise I numb out, and that's devastingly worse than feeling the bottomless sadness. Your message lets me access that, which then lets me access the deep joy, gratitude, and encouragement which comes from hearing that my particular strain of storytelling madness is still wanted, still desired, even after so much time has passed since I last wrote...

I never assume this.

Christ, it's a fear that haunts me at every turn, so to have some of that demonically painful terror exorcised by your beautiful message goes waaaaay WAAAAY beyond helpful. Please don't ever doubt the power your words have had or how deep they reach. I'm talking deep deep roots here. My appreciation is boundless.

Thank you. 💕💜💕

I wish you a generously blessed rest of the year, Anon, however you do your wintering, festive or not, I hope it's fun and fulfilling🌟. Thank you also for your warm wishes! Yes, I usually celebrate, though this year will be a more subdued time due to a personal loss; that said, I will embrace all good tidings for the season of giving -- starting with this beautiful message from you. 💕

[callioope]

omg i finished it

i feel like i should applause?

i feel like i should lay down

ahhhh

i need to process this

[lunamusings]

All I draw is feels.

[pedromiamor]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 4/? Fandom: Narcos (TV) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Connie Murphy/Steve Murphy/Javier Peña, Steve Murphy/Javier Peña, Connie Murphy/Steve Murphy (Narcos) Characters: Javier Peña, Steve Murphy (Narcos), Connie Murphy (Narcos), Ricardo the Bartender Additional Tags: Threesome - F/M/M, Anal Sex, Vaginal Sex, Double Penetration, Blow Jobs, Pining, Angst, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Hurt Javier Peña, he just wants to be loved, Javi is in love with Steve, Vaginal Fingering, major feels, Sexual Tension, dick grabbing, Possessive Bruises, Anal Fingering, Hair-pulling, only slight, very drunk, There is so much sex in this, Grenade Explosions, character injury, Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism Summary:

A drunk admission by Steve of something Connie confided in him changes their relationship drastically.

Javier struggles with whether his decision was the right one or not.

[vliegendeegel]

Bingewatched season 3 of the Dragon Prince and am now filled with ALL THE FEELS.

Big kudos for their worldbuilding and especially their characters. Even the background characters are compelling. Background characters that aren't just vague blobs, but who actually show feelings!

And wow. The villains, and their struggles. Perfection.

[herscreweduphead]

All the Fitzsimmons feels from the last episode have given me so much life that I’m now an immortal being

They gave us EVERYTHING