Im not really sure anymore.
I grew up with fairy tales and romantic shows and the guy always asks the girl out. There's expectations.
If you miss a chance, another one will show up. There will be another meeting, another friend of a friend who knows that person, or you end up in the same company or the same University or anything.
There's always another chance.
I know the real world operates differently and sometimes lost chances are just that. You are not living in a romantic fantasy.
But despite everything you can't help but hope.
Not because he fulfilled any of my unrealistic romantic fantasies, but because he was just some guy. And he managed to be charming just like that.
I've fallen for the tall ones, the funny people, the stoic ones, the absolutely gorgeous people.
But he was just some guy. Nothing breathtakingly special. But he had things that stood out. But also gave me hope that some guy, would also be just so equally charming.
He made dumb jokes, clever jokes, said some slightly cringe things, showed signs of having some cringe taste in cinema, he was thoughtfull, kind in ways that mattered, observant, listened and just so much more.
I've known him for less than 24 hours and it's premature to think so much about things.
Perhaps it's the unchecked teenager in me speaking or the mentally ill part of me.
And realistically, i've had crushes on people longer and more intense and have gotten over them. And i know i will get over this too.
There's a very good chance i may not have left as strong an impression on him, as he has for me. And i might have just been a some girl he saw and would probably think about for an hour after and forget about it.
But sometimes you just can't help but wonder. Whether something meaningful could have been created after the fantasy was cleared up.