There are a lot of things about Hiriluk’s story that I think are wonderful and touching, but something I can never get over is that most of the time he was wrong.
He was wrong to do this to Chopper, driving him out and acting like he no longer cared about him. He thought that by driving him away he would spare Chopper the pain of watching him die. But if he had succeeded Chopper’s heart may have never recovered, he could have thought nobody would love and accept him and he would have become an angry, lonely, mistrustful person.
I think Hiriluk did this because he is, frankly, stupid. He made bad decisions from a place of love, assuming he knew what was best for people. He was too focused on his own death specifically without remembering that the reason death is painful is because of the loss. Between losing Hiriluk to rejection or losing him to disease, Chopper would still be alone. But at least with the latter he would have fond memories instead of bitterness.
Obviously that’s not exactly how it works out, but every time I read this I think about how almost everything Hiriluk did made things worse. AND YET, there was still a lot of valuable things that came from his choices.
I do love a complex character.










