An Open Letter To My 16 Years Old Self
Listen to me you nerdy dude trying to live and enjoy your last year as junior student, making so many memories and going out of your shell; your grade 10 year is the start of so many wonderful things. I know that life hasn’t been treating you nicely, that you have suffered so many tragedy; but i promise you this everything gets better each day that passes. You will mourn, cry, be sad and lose your innocent childlike personality. However, just cling into your family and you will find a light at the end of your journey. I want you to enjoy every moment, every minute and every second in your senior year and let your academic as it is; do not get that much frustrated for the things that you cannot change. Spend each time with your best friend and squad, this may be the last year that you get to spend every day with them; because your every day will turn into weekly meetings that will soon turn into monthly and probably into once in a blue moon meeting. You will lose in touch with people that you once believed that will be with you until your college years and that’s okay you are still friends with them, you just don’t talk much as they also have their own individual lives. You will learn shocking news about them along the way, but that won’t make you love them any less. I miss you too in many ways; i miss how much passion you have; how much determined you were that love is around the corner; i miss how you believe that no matter how hurt you were you would still cling around love; i miss how your thoughts and belief about love were so pure and innocent; i miss how you write your poems and prose about love; i miss how eager you were and i miss how young and innocent you were. I wish that i still have your idealism of how simple love could be. I also have to many regrets that i wish you wouldn’t make. I wonder how things would be if you did them earlier than me, would things still be the same. If you only kissed that girl would things have been different, would you be two together? If you only stayed a little later that evening would there be something more? If you haven’t ghosted that girl that you met at Christmas camp, would you two be something more and have a stronger relationship with the almighty above? I guess everything that happened is for the best, i know that if you are reading this by now you will do something to these left unfinished business by me. You might also be the bigger man and continue along, because you know that the future is such a brighter and beautiful place. My advice for you again as a 16 years old teenager is enjoy your youth, trust me time flies when you’re enjoying and you might want to keep a journal along the way; because i started a little way too late than i should have. Savor every moment you have with your friends and squad, because one day you will all have different paths to walk on and you will all meet once in while. Please do not skip on sleep, i miss how peaceful those nights and days were i can sleep without worrying any works that i have. I want you to love boldly, freely and all the intensity you can do with love; because once you see how harsh the world is, only love can make things much lighter and better. Lastly spend time with your family as long as you can, because once you enter your senior high school and college years; it’s as if you were watching a teaser trailer in a cinema and all at once you won’t be able to rewind or repeat it. Life will go on and you will have to grow up and mature eventually, learning to be independent all by yourself. Enjoy your youth for as long as you can. Everything gets better trust me. With love always, Your 19 year old self.
