#operator 823 rambles

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Makarov is infesting my brain because there’s so many ways to fit him into a relationship. Like. KDNSICSNICNSICSHCJJSD

Arranged marriage where he doesn’t even care who you are as long as you’re able to help him raise an heir

Arranged marriage like above except he slowly falls for you

Genuine affection except you don’t reciprocate so he just kinda keeps you knowing you can’t say no

The above but STOCKHOLM SYNDROME

The above except it doesn’t end there he’s like “okay okay hold on that’s fucked I actually love you-“ and he tries un Stockholming you

Reverse?? He hates you but you love him and beg for his attention but he just ignores you (probably uses you later when convenient)(dog coded reader)

Both of you genuinely love each other and you’re his queen/king/overlord (overlord is a sick ass gender neutral terms let’s be real)

Both of you genuinely love each other except he’s like “no I can’t let you near me it’s for your own good” so mmmmm mutual pining

there’s deffo more my brain just can’t find them in my mental files rn…. Makarov my beloved fucked up terrorist cunt

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Thinking about boyfriend Phillip Graves…

Boyfriend Graves who’s always away with his Shadow Company stuff and when he comes back it’s like he’s more excited about talking about his Shadows than he is seeing you again

Boyfriend Graves who notices you stayed up until ungodly hours of the night just to see him come home but doesn’t say anything because he just assumes you know he’s grateful

Boyfriend Graves who doesn’t say anything about you having his favorite meal prepared for him when he comes home, again thinking you just know he’s grateful

Boyfriend Graves who sometimes just passes out the moment his head hits the pillow and doesn’t even ask how you’ve been while he was away assuming you’d tell him if you wanted him to know

Boyfriend Graves who has his world flipped upside down when you finally pack a suitcase and tell him you’re leaving if he doesn’t shape up and start putting in as much effort as you do

Boyfriend Graves who feels more scared than he’s ever been as he promises over and over to change

Boyfriend Graves who holds you extra tight that night and offers to help cook dinner from then on and asks you more questions

Boyfriend Graves who forgets things sometimes still and beats himself up about it until you reassure him he’s doing much better than before

Boyfriend Graves who eventually does become quite the model boyfriend and looks back on his old self realizing he’s much happier this way, feeling more involved with you and more connected than before

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Thinking about Bell who slowly falls for Adler as simple “this is my boss” turns to “I admire this man’s skill” to “I admire this man” to “I want him.” And Adler wants Bell too. Wants who he turned them into, at least. Because damn is it hot the way Bell knows exactly how to respond to his cues and how to understand Adler’s thought processes. (Of course it’s the narcissist in Adler who simply likes someone on his level. And of course Bell is on his level. They’re made from parts of him.)

But Adler knows he can’t have Bell. It’d fuck everything up. But the stress of the pining actually helps Bell’s memories resurface and when they finally realize what happened with the brainwashing the feel more betrayed than anything ever thought possible. And even worse, cherry on top, they know what’s next. They know that either they betray and kill Adler or they help him and they’re dead.

What Bell chooses is ultimately up to their previous morals.

Arguably a Bell that used to feel love like a devotee would keep Adler alive. Let the last thing they did be for him and for the world. Perhaps they can at least live in Adler’s good graces and in his memories.

But a bell who was self preserving above all else? Dead. Adler is dead without a second thought. The betrayal they feel is only another reason they stab into him a few more times and they stare at his dead body for a few minutes longer.

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Was on my grandparents roof thinking and some Adler/Bell stuff came to me.

Imagine if canonically there really was a Bell ghost that was attached to Adler in some supernatural way. Couldn’t move on. And it messed with Adler’s head so bad. Sometimes he felt guilty, sometimes he felt sad, sometimes plain angry.

And Bell’s pissed too. Cant find a way to leave. Cant find a way to rest. They start fuckin with Adler. Creepy messages in fogged up mirrors, things spelled out in letter magnets on the fridge, ruining neatly organized mementos Adler owns.

But finally Adler has enough. He can’t do this anymore. And he starts begging (angrily) for some kind of sign. For Bell to just show WHY they won’t leave. And when he realizes Bell can’t leave, it kinda clicks. Like, I’m not stuck with you, we’re stuck with each other.

And something about them realizing that softens everything. Makes them have a weird understanding. First time either has understood anything about the other even since Bell regained their memory. Slowly over time they stop living against one another and actually coexist. Instead of saying “fuck you” in the mirror after a hot shower Bell reminds Adler he’s got dinner at 6, Adler buys an extra arm chair so Bell can sit in the living room and watch TV with him, they look through old photos together and Adler tells all the stories of HIS that he implemented into Bell’s head from Vietnam so they can figure out what’s real or not.

They sure don’t live (or… uh… death?) for one another. But they sure do make things work. It’s their mutual “sorry”. Because we all know neither of them could say it. Neither has the guts or the courage to risk their pride or dignity.

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Sobbing bc I just love Phillip Graves so much. Like... :(( Want him to be my older brother so we can get into shenanigans... Wanna eat good home cooked food and drink that southern style sweet tea...

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Me when my US History teacher starts talking about the Cold War

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Deadass? This hurt me- I had to hit the

@ask-americas-monster YOU HAVE ME AND DIANA LIKE "oh- oh damn-"

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Guys what if I made a Shadow OC..................