swinging bat at hornets nest again: i guess the reason i bristle so much at the hardcore pro-jedi/anti-anakin posting on here is that’s the text’s starting point. every frantic multi-gif post about how fucked up anakin is can be summarized by that first menacing shot of vader strolling down a ship hallway in a new hope. like thats it. that is the face of it. to reject the way the text doubles back and complicates this first image, the immense love and forgiveness this image has also grown associated with, to insist, over and over and over, that nothing more nuanced ever happened: that strikes me as a failure of the imagination, and wierdly stubborn.
im so fucked up rn god i wish someone would use me as a trial and error experiment to see how helpless and turned on i become with different types of sexual stimuli
yk when i said i wanted anon hate i meant funny shit of people getting really mad at my rpf not me getting repeatedly harassed because "15 year olds can't be systems and have npd" or something
doctor who episode 1x08 father’s day the doctor is not a replacement for rose’s father but he’s not not a replacement for rose’s father he’s father in the way people refer to God
it’s crazy to me how pro vs anti tommy discourse has somehow become some big homophobia / representation debate. sometimes you’re just a lesbian who hates ugly lame men and doesn’t want them around your best friends . this is a timeless experience. and yes it transcends the laws of reality bc buck IS my best friend and i’m contractually obligated to hate the ugly man he’s dating. it’s not more serious than that
What's the favorite line you've written where you said everyone should go crazy for this?
1) this reply is so late im so sorry
2) im assuming this is bc of that post i reblogged thank u for calling me out fslkjdflsd
just kidding. this is a bit of a tricky question because i think sometimes it's less a line and more a moment or sequence -- writer friends, do you feel that too? or a parallel. and it's very hard to identify a favourite because im proud of different moments for different reasons and over the years ive definitely become a better writer, so stuff i thought was The Everyone Goes Nuts Moment in old fanfics doesnt necessarily hold up to the test of time (i.e. slightly more mature writer phil) anymore. also, fundamentally, i am an indecisive little person.
that being said. of my more recent things, i have 3.
first, from the last chapter of hopeful. [meme voice] for personal reasons, i still have a lot of feelings abt this line and think everyone else should too:
"You know I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for you.”
Sam’s laugh is huffed and brittle. “Draggin’ you outta there was quite literally the least I could do.”
“No,” says Bucky. “I mean before.” Sam frowns at the carpet, and Bucky adds, “You get that, right? You get that you saved my life.”
second, which is not a line but a moment, from the last chapter of summertime. i still love this scene and sometimes read it for myself when im feeling tender hearted:
“I love you,” Sarah says, so loudly that the words reverberate in her own ears.
Bucky comes to a full halt and stares at her.
“I love you,” she says again, and feels her voice hitch. “I love you. I am in love with you, James Buchanan Barnes.”
All she can see is shock, freezing his expression in place, widening his eyes. A delicate sort of tremble, disbelief that’s being forced roughly into belief, is taking place just behind his eyes. His mouth stays just a little bit open. Bucky is very often bad at receiving personal compliments, and she is sure this is not so different. Maybe even more difficult to truly know.
“Are you hearing me?” she says. “I need you to hear me, James. I love you. I love you, I love you –”
Two stray, untouched tears slip from his lash line and fall simply down his grimy cheeks, into his beard. His jaw is trembling. She knows he can hear her, she knows –
because for me, this was the crux of the fic -- the way each of them had to witness proof of other person's love in a slightly different way to really believe it, hear it, even though they were both clearly wanting that future from the beginning of the fic, just unsure of their own place in it.
and, finally, the third is from my most recent fic home again, which really is a line and ive been thinking about it for months lol:
He lets out a humourless laugh. Looks up. “What. You thinking of following Captain America into the jaws of death one last time?”
For a long moment, Sam thinks he must’ve said the wrong thing; Bucky’s face ripples as though caught in an ache, a sudden, startled expression. Almost as soon as it comes, it goes, though. It turns into something gentle that Sam doesn’t fully understand.
for obvious reasons.
but also, in the context of the full fic, i worked very hard to make it both the kind of line that is earned and the kind of line that is a sudden, unexpected surprise. and of course, then there is the payoff of bucky's answer, slightly different now to reflect his differentness, but still essentially his answer, immediately after.
