Lilith screamed as she pulled at her hair, hands pushing into her temples, unable to bear the sight of the horror she had been left with. They were supposed to die together, they were supposed to be free together, she was supposed to follow him, to join him. Not stay here. No, no, it wasn’t supposed to be like this. She was freeing them. Her son wasn’t supposed to be alone. No, no, no.
“Wait!” She screamed again, desperate for the Dark Lord to come back, to undo his curse and kill her as he’d promised, to end this, this agony, this torture, end it, end it now... “WAIT!!!!” Her voice was sore and hoarse as she screamed after him and nothing came. No, she couldn’t bear it, no, no, no. She had bore all this, all the blood, all of it, knowing what it would bring, knowing that she and Adam would be free, that they’d be done. No more running. Freedom. She had forced herself to survive it, to live through the blood and the smell and the horror and the grief and the loss because she had known it would only be for a moment, that it would be over, she’d be done.
She wasn’t supposed to be left with it. She wasn’t supposed to without her son.
“No, no, no, no....” She cried, writhing in the pain of her grief, tears pouring down her cheeks, hair knotted from where she’d pulled at it, “This wasn’t it...no.....” She heard someone at the door and looked up sharply from where she sat crumpled, thinking perhaps he’d returned, that he’d decided to end her after all, that his anger was enough for him to want to inflict violence as he always did. He always gave in to his impulses, always. Why not the impulse to kill her?
But it wasn’t Lucifer. It was Abigail. Lilith let out a noise like a wounded animal, “No...” She shook her head, crying more, trying to make it go away, to undo it. Nothing could, nothing could,....nothing could turn back time for her. “Come back....come back.....” She cried out, and she didn’t know whether she was shouting to Adam or to Lucifer. “No, please....no....”