#orenjae

[sorensyearning]

me: "oh, I really need to work on making more prints and stickers to sell..."

also me when i finally find time to draw: "hehe... Jae... me and Jae 🤤🤤.... me and Jae snuggling, even.... hehehehehe.... mhmmm jaeeeee 🤤🤤....."

[sorensyearning]

just bought expensive cloth softener that smells like peaches because i miss my omega 🙄🙄🙄 and it's genuinely comforting for me to find anything that lightly smells like him 🙄🙄🙄 because i need his scent on me 🙄🙄🙄 because we're mates and we're supposed to smell like each other 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

[sorensyearning]

crying my eyes out abt this little video on tiktok... it was captioned "in my world, the sun rises twice". it really does.

i miss my blossom so much, god! our silly little every day where i get up first and wait to watch him stir awake. it's what we've always dreamed of, and this made me break a little bcs i love calling him "my morning sun". he really is like the sun...

i need to go home, man. i need my life.

[sorensyearning]

i keep dreaming about Alhaitham, which means that not having an actual picture in the same graphics of old reality doesn't stop me from seeing them in my dreams. WHICH MEANS. if I draw Jae enough and stare at the drawings enough I'll eventually start dreaming about him more frequently too...

all I do is look at haikaveh fanart on twitter and read haikaveh fics, tho... idk if it's comparable. ALL I DO I ALSO JUST THINK ABOUT JAE, AT THE SAME TIME!!! god just let me dream about him ughhh in our six years I've dreamt about him maybe seven times and in only three of those was he actually accurate...

[sorensyearning]

i made a board on pinterest for pictures that look like things Jae (s/o) would post on his insta so that i could use them as reference for art and it's.... it's all Hu Yetao 🤦🤦🤦

Jae doesn't have any sort of face claim in this reality and ive only found exactly two people that look remotely like him, one being this guy BAHAHAHA they dress the same, they take very similar pictures, there's some with similar hair and their eye shape is eerily similar.

in that picture in specific they really do look alike BAHAHAHA it's almost a little weird. I'm running out of new Jae art I should draw him more 🥹 I'm barely picking up a pencil these days, but I always draw him when I do. it's muscle memory.

[sorensyearning]

need him sat on my lap, my arms around his waist while he wraps his around my head. so that I can hide my face in his chest, hear his heartbeat (oh, my sweet blossom is so warm and real), and be safe forever. in his arms nothing is ever that big of a problem.

i love you, Jae.